What Price Freedom?

What Price Freedom?

What Price Freedom?

I‘m re-sharing this post that I initially published on January 22nd, 2017, because it seems like a particularly relevant topic right now. Let me know what you think.

I had an interesting dream last night. I dreamed that Donald Trump wanted to buy me. Literally, buy me…like a pet or some sort of material object.

The thing was, I had to agree to allow myself to be bought. The trade off was that I would be completely taken care of, live in material luxury, and never, ever have to worry about my physical safety or being provided for – but I had to live in his mansion and I could never leave. It was represented to me as a gold and glass terrarium, of sorts – literally, a gilded cage, like a human aquarium.

The entire dream, I was walking around with him and one of his assistants to various places where he would comment on things and attempt to convince me to allow him to buy me.

In the end, I decided that no amount of security or safety represented in the form of material wealth was worth trading in my freedom.

As I thought about the dream and what it represented for me personally, as well as on a more national scale, I had some illuminating thoughts.

On a national scale, if we are to take Mr. Trump’s appearance in my dream at face value, it’s an interesting metaphorical representation of Trump’s isolationist outlook and certain political sentiments that have been expressed by a number of people over the last decade (and long before that, I’m sure) in reference to things like national security and the NSA. People who say that they are perfectly okay with trading in certain personal freedoms for the promise that someone else will keep them safe, provide for them, people who are ok with sacrificing their privacy in the name of security, etc.

It’s also a very apt metaphor about the illusion of security that is provided by a capitalist society–that money and things are what make us feel provided for and safe. The aspirations of success and luxury are really just a cage that keeps us trapped in an economic system that benefits some more than others, and is, at the end of the day, unsustainable.

With the rise of terrorism in the U.S., people seem to be adhering to fear in insane ways. Is this what so many people want? Is a prison still a prison if it has golden bars instead of iron? It’s incredible what fear will make people do.

On a more on a personal level, the dream represents sacrificing what would bring you true happiness for the sake of being financially provided for. So many people live in the mindset that they can’t pursue what they truly want because of money or some other material reason based in fear and a scarcity mentality.

When we make these kinds of sacrifices out of fear, we are giving away our freedom to create a life we truly love in exchange for a life that simply meets our material needs. We are sacrificing enjoying our lives to just be alive. Ask yourself this question – which is better? A few short years of pure, unadulterated freedom and joy, unencumbered by the illusion of material comforts, or a long life lived safely but mundanely? Is total freedom worth the risk involved? And how much freedom are you willing to trade in the name of financial safety and security?

Holistic Spaces Podcast

Holistic Spaces Podcast

Holistic Spaces Podcast

Ijust wanted to throw up a quick post today and direct your attention to a podcast interview I did a couple of months ago.

I’ve been easing into my new job this week. I feel like I have no time anymore, because I’m so used to being able to make my own schedule. Now it’s dark when I leave work and I only have 3-4 hours before it’s time to go to sleep when I get home! Yeah, I’m old. I fall asleep around 9:30 or 10 each night. I haven’t worked a full time job since before I started this blog, so I have to find my routine for posting again.

Meanwhile, the holidays are in full swing around here and no one does Christmas like New York City. I was walking around looking at all the decorations in Anthropologie by Rockefeller Center last week and it made me a little bit depressed. This is the first year in a long time that I won’t be decorating for the holidays. I don’t have any Christmas decorations, much less any space to store them. I’m spending Christmas in Alabama with my mom, though, so I won’t be alone.

Today I wanted to share with you the Holistic Spaces podcast interview I did back in September with Anji Cho, a New York City Feng Shui consultant. It’s a super short listen where Anji and I discuss dream interpretation, sacred spaces, the energy of your space, altars, and how to set intentions with your home decor. You’ll love the discussion!


This week, I’m very excited to welcome my friend, Ash Riley, an intuitive personal development mentor who works with many spiritual topics, including dreams. This time around, we’ll chat with Ash about dreams and sacred spaces, but hopefully she’ll be back soon with more insight on all the spiritual aspects of her work.

Show notes:
Post I mentioned about the segment from a previous interview on my move to New York


How Dreams Can Predict The Future

How Dreams Can Predict The Future

How Dreams Can Predict The Future

Question from a reader:

“Can dreams predict the future?”

Yes, dreams can predict the future, although most of the time it’s not in the way most people assume. In some instances, you may have a dream and then see that event occur in real life in exactly the same way that it happened in your dream. This is what most people think of when they think about dreams predicting the future and it’s a rare occurrence for the most part

Dreams can often give indicators of future events in a less literal way, though, and a lot of people miss the cues because they don’t know what to look for or how to identify what they’re being shown. Here’s a few examples:

When I was in college, I dreamed that my ex boyfriend left his fiancee at the alter and asked me to marry him instead. A month or so later, they broke off their engagement and he asked me out on a date. As you can see, this wasn’t exactly what occurred in the dream, but the general theme was correct.

A few years ago, while I was sleeping on a flight to Europe, I was in the middle of a dream when the “volume” on the dream was completely turned off and a voice came in over the top (while the imagery from the original dream was still happening, almost like an emergency broadcast) and said, “Listen! Brother… car accident.”

I was completely freaked out the rest of the trip, but nothing happened. Six months later, that dream randomly popped into my head and I thought, “Well I guess it was nothing.” A two days later, my brother walked away from a head-on collision with barely a scratch on him.

Many dreams can show you, generally speaking, what will happen for you if you follow certain guidance that you’re being given within them. These things will show up symbolically and sometimes literally, or a mixture of the two.

If you’d like to learn more about how to understand what your dreams are trying to tell you, sign up for my online dream interpretation course launching on May 22nd! 

How Dreams Can Predict The Future

Recurring Dreams and Repressed Trauma

Recurring Dreams and Repressed Trauma

Question from a reader:

“I’ve always had night terrors, and I frequently encounter spirits (it runs in the family). The very first dream I can ever remember having (and I almost always remember my dreams) is a recurring dream I still have to this day. I’ll have it anywhere between once and dozens of times a year. It’s very dark, and the beginning is in 8-bit (I was a 90’s kid who loved my Gameboy Color). I’m running through a vertical maze made of dark grey sand and boulders, and the maze is quickly flooding. While the rushing water chases me, I come across my kinder garden teacher, who can breathe underwater. She warns me to run. I do, and eventually the water is up to my calves, then my waist, then my chin. The dream gets hazy for a moment and there is a sort of scene change. I’m now in my childhood bedroom, it’s storming outside, and there is a man’s face in my window. He’s old, but not elderly, and he’s smiling cruelly with bulging eyes. I’m bent over a chair and in pain. I’m not alone in the room. There is a man and I don’t know who he is. I always wake up then. I know the dream is hinting toward some kind of molestation which I can’t really remember. I get flashes sometimes and I know that I suffer from PTSD because of the experience. I’ve read many times that water in dreams symbolizes consciousness. I know this dream is telling me that there are very dark things from my childhood that I can’t remember, but that actively haunt me. But I don’t know if this dream is a warning to keep it suppressed, a window into my memories, or… what. Any ideas?”

I‘ve written about the significance of recurring dreams before and how they are typically attempting to show you something that you’ve been repressing. You can use Jungian dream symbolism to get quite a bit of meaning out of your dream. To address your question immediately – is the dream a warning to keep it suppressed? No. Mostly because suppressing things is counter-productive. The mind suppresses traumatic memories as a way of temporarily shielding us, but long term suppression can lead to all kinds of issues both emotional and physical, hence your PTSD.

Even your dream itself is telling you that this is something you need to explore. The reason we have reoccurring dreams is because there are things in our subconscious that we aren’t acknowledging:

To see or dream that you are in a labyrinth indicates your desires to get to the center of some issue or problem. Alternatively, it suggests that you are feeling trapped in some situation. You feel lost and that there is no way out.

To dream that you are in a maze denotes that you need to deal with a waking task on a more direct level. You are making the situation harder than it really is.

There are a few very obvious clues which, as you already know, suggest it’s related to childhood (the Gameboy association with 8bit and the kindergarten teacher).

I think it’s interesting that you say the maze is vertical – like climbing out of a well or a cave? Basements, wells, caves, and other things that are “below” represent the subconscious mind. You’re running away from whatever is in there.  And the thing that is chasing you is water.

Water doesn’t just represent consciousness, it represents emotions and the state of the water can give you a good indication of what kind. For example, a clear, peaceful stream represents a clear, peaceful mind. A tidal wave represents overwhelming emotions. Muddy water can represent icky emotions, a violent, tossing ocean can represent rage, etc.

To see your teacher (past or present) in your dream suggests that you are seeking some advice, guidance, or knowledge. You are heading into a new path in life and are ready to learn by example or from a past experience. Consider your own personal experiences with that particular teacher. What subject was taught?

“seeking some advice, guidance, or knowledge”

The teacher in question was able to breathe under water – water which represents your repressed emotions. This tells me the teacher represents the ability to become fully immersed in those emotions and not only survive, but learn from them, understand them and move forward instead of running from them.

When you go under water, more or less, is when you start to get bits and pieces of the memories, so those are obviously what’s being repressed.

I think you should consider seeking out a therapist who specializes in recovered memory therapy. Someone with experience in hypnotic regression can be helpful. They should also be trained in treating emotional trauma and PTSD. There’s tons of trauma release techniques that a lot of therapists are starting to use with their clients now.

I don’t think I have to tell you that it won’t be easy, but if you find someone that you like and you trust, they can absolutely help you through it.

You can also supplement therapy with some serious energy healing and chakra cleansing and start learning some meditation techniques to help you with it on a daily basis and it will help ease the process quite a bit. Just start looking for healing techniques that are specifically for trauma release.

If you’re interested in getting further direction from this dream, I can do a tarot reading specifically in conjunction with your dream and the symbolism there to get a clearer picture of what this dream is attempting to show you and how it relates to larger life themes and lessons. Follow the call to action below.

Dream Walking

Dream Walking

Dream Walking

The last couple of posts have talked about out of body experiences and astral projection as it pertains to our individual experiences. Today I’m going to talk about something similar but a little bit different – dream walking.

Dream walking is when you enter the dreams of others, or when they enter your dreams. Some may also experience this as a shared dream.

Dream walking can be done lucidly, or not. The only way you would be able to confirm that you’ve done it is if the other person were to share their dreams with you on a regular basis and the two of you can compare notes, but there are some tell-tale signs.

The Dream World

Most of the time we think of dreams as not being “real.” But everything in the universe is made up of energy, including your thoughts and consciousness. In that sense, everything that exists is just as real as anything else – including your dreams. Some might even argue that because your dreams are pure consciousness, and consciousness is the basis of reality, your dreams are actually closer to the original state of “real” than anything in the physical world.

I discussed astral planes and dimensions a bit in my last post, and I also mentioned that your consciousness is multidimensional. What that means is that your consciousness exists in multiple (actually, ALL) planes of existence simultaneously, it’s just that you’re only typically aware of the most immediate one at any given time.

Dreams, meditation, hypnosis, and other tools for altering consciousness allows your conscious mind to experience some of these other dimensions temporarily.

A common misconception many people have is that you experience one dimension at a time and you go from here to there. In reality, it’s a lot more fluid than that – all of them exist together and particularly within dreams, you may experience a mix of elements.

What that means is your experience of those other dimensions is filtered through your current ego consciousness.

Interacting On Different Levels

Just like you can have an OBE and astral project into varying planes of existence and dimensions, you can also interact with other people in those varying levels and planes of existence. It’s just your multidimensional consciousness and their multidimensional consciousness meeting at the same level – or not.

The thing that makes this totally fascinating and confusing at the same time is that neither of you absolutely has to be in the same level to interact. You may interact with them lucidly, but they have no idea and vice versa. Their consciousness may interact with you from a higher level and you remember it and experience it lucidly either in this plane or the next one up, but they don’t. Or you may both experience it and remember it but wake up thinking it was just a dream, and if you never compared notes on those dreams, you’d never know it.

Apparently I have a tendency to show up in people’s dreams and have really deep, meaningful conversations with them that they can’t remember when they wake up. Five people have told me about them so far, I’m sure more of you are out there! (And if you are, I’d love to hear about it! No matter how weird they might sound. No judgement.) I typically don’t remember these, but there was one instance where there was some correlation and I’ll talk about that in the next section.

Shared Dreams
Shared dreams can be just as you’d imagine them to be – two people having the exact same dream, or, two people having the exact same dream featuring each other, or, they can be two people interacting in a dream state, but each of them experiencing and remembering the dream differently.

For example, you may have a shared dream that you are having a conversation with someone, but you only remember your half of the conversation and they only remember their half. Or each of you may see completely different imagery in the dreams, but they will both have the same overarching themes and contain similar information.

I was once working with someone on some intense, prolonged dream interpretation. He was having very vivid dreams about me every night (literally – nine nights in a row and then a few more sporadically after that). Every day, he’d tell me the dream he had the night before and we’d go through the symbolism, and I would compare notes with the dreams I was having.

One night I had a dream that I was having a conversation with him via text message. I could barely remember it, but from what I could recall, I was attempting to explain something to him and make him understand a difficult concept.

The next day, he told me about the dream he had that evening. He was talking to me on the phone and I told him, “Quit wanting the unattainable. Only you know what is attainable and only you can make yourself happy.”

One Level Up

Earlier I mentioned interacting with another person’s consciousness “one level up.” I, obviously, struggled to explain the level of self-awareness that one has in the higher planes in my last post, but this one is a tad easier to describe. I’m not really sure what the proper term for this level is, but you definitely still maintain a sense of your current identity so my assumption is that it is much “closer”, so to speak, to our current level than the other one.

The way I experience this level – and I’ve talked to other people who have had similar experiences – is simply as a void. There’s nothing in it except myself and the other person. It’s just a big, blank black space. I’m always 100% aware of myself and of who the other person is and that we’re interacting, but it doesn’t necessarily occur to me that I’m dreaming. It’s just as “real” as the real world and it feels just as natural that I should be interacting with that person there as it might if I were awake, but there is always a strange sense of surprise because I’m always thinking, “What are you doing here?!”

Other Dream Quirks

Dreams are highly symbolic, so very rarely are the things in them completely literal – not even the people involved. What I’m saying is, you may show up in someone else’s dream as another person and vice versa.

You’ve probably had dreams where you knew who the person was supposed to be, but they didn’t look like themselves, or they were someone else you knew, entirely (I know I have). In those dreams, you were at least semi-aware that it was supposed to be someone else. But you may also have dreams where you aren’t aware of that and it could be someone visiting your dream as someone else. Or even something else – people can show up as animals, too. Or anything, really – it’s the dream world! The sky isn’t even the limit 🙂

Another odd quirk about consciousness… I’ve mentioned in several of my blogs that time is really just a human perception and it doesn’t actually exist. This means that you may have a shared dream with a person, or interact with them via dream state, except you don’t experience it at the same time. You might have the dream tonight, and they may not have it until next week. Time doesn’t matter. Consciousness is al there is, and it’s all very fluid.

I know all of these possibilities can make it difficult to determine what kind of dream it is that you’re having and how you should interpret it, but with a little practice, you can really start digging in and learning a lot. If you’ve got a dream you think you need some help with, I’ve just started offering dream interpretations. Get the details here.

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How Dreams Can Predict The Future

Astral Projection

Astral Projection

I started this post yesterday morning and began filling in some of my personal stories and quickly realized I had way too many to recount them all in a single post, so I decided to break them into two, but today as I write, it just keeps getting longer, so I suppose I’ll save dream walking for part three. Here’s part two on astral projection!

A lot of people use the terms OBE and astral projection interchangeably, which can be confusing, but to be honest, the two are a little more fluid than you think. As I mentioned yesterday, OBEs typically occur under two types of circumstances – fully conscious or fully unconscious. The common unifying theme between the two is that they occur within this plane of existence. In other words, the soul leaves the body, but it’s still in the same dimension as the body (if you’re wondering what I mean when I say “dimension,” this is a helpful blog post to read [<—click]).

With astral projection, you can also be lucid, or totally unconscious, or somewhere in between but you’re usually not fully in this dimension. What I mean by that is, with an OBE, everything around you looks the same as it does when you’re in your body. With Astral projection, it typically doesn’t, if you’re even “here” at all. I’ll talk more about that in a bit.

“Symptoms” of Astral Projection

Astral projection typically happens at night while you are sleeping and there are all sorts of physical sensations associated with it.

Most people are only aware of the feeling when they return to the body. When you wake up suddenly feeling like you just sunk into your mattress, or have the feeling of falling and your whole body feels tingly. All of these are common feelings associated with returning to the body.

The tingly feeling is also a very common one when you’re about to leave the body. Many times loud noises can be associated with both entering and exiting. I used to wake up hearing a rumbling or a crash and think a shelf had fallen in the middle of the night or that someone had knocked over a garbage can outside, only to discover nothing amiss. Sometimes it would sound like a door slammed or someone standing next to the bed had clapped. I’ve started to associate these sounds with coming back in from astral projection.

I’ve also experienced the rumbling just prior to leaving. My very first fully conscious astral projection occurred in the middle of the night after I had woken up and was laying there trying to fall back to sleep (this is when I have a lot of them, actually – at least that’s when I tend to remember them).

I woke up at 4 a.m. and was laying there with my eyes closed trying to fall back to sleep. I saw a bright flash in my head, kind of like an old school flash bulb camera. Then I heard what sounded like thunder, except it was inside my head. Then I felt a tingling sensation start from the top of my head and flow down my entire body, and as it went, it was like my body fell asleep, but my mind never did.

Suddenly I felt a floating sensation and felt myself going up…up….up. And it was uncontrollable. Then, all of the sudden, I was floating up at the ceiling and looking down at the bed.

Here But Not “Here”

Earlier I mentioned that with astral projection, you may not be fully in this dimension. That mean that you may be able to see what’s here, but it may not look quite the same.

After comparing notes with several other people who have done quite a bit of astral projection, one common thing that more than one person has reported about being “here” but in the astral version of “here” is that often times, the scenery seems to be covered in a black veil. Very small details may be slightly different.

Continuing the story I was telling earlier, I found myself looking down at the bed from the vantage point of the ceiling. It was very dark in the room – darker than usual. After I stopped completely freaking out, I realized that I must be astral projecting and decided to do what everybody who astral projects does… go exploring!

It was Christmas time when this happened and we had the house decorated. I went downstairs and passed one of our trees, which in real life, should have been lit. It was on a timer and set to turn off at five in the morning. But it wasn’t lit. I went into the living room and was about to try to go out the back door.

Given that I was in my astral body, physical objects shouldn’t be an issue. You’d think you would just float right through them – but when I tried going “through” the back door, it felt solid. Then my step-daughter’s alarm clock started going off. I could hear it and in a split second, I was back in my body, upstairs, in bed. I looked at the clock and it was 4:20. Twenty minutes has passed and it felt like less than five. (As an aside, I think the reason I wasn’t able to leave my house was because my guides were keeping me in a safe place in order to see how I would react to that type of situation. Think of it as training. The kind you don’t sign up for. lol)

Moving When Out of Body

When I say I “went downstairs,” what I really mean is that I floated downstairs. I had never done this before – at least not consciously, so I was attempting to move around just as I would if I were walking. Except I moved just by thinking about moving. I thought about moving in increments – going out the bedroom door, into the hall, down the stairs – but if I had simply thought of being downstairs, I would have been there in a split second. It’s as simple as a change in perspective, or like cutting to a new scene in a movie. You think it and you’re there.

You don’t even really have to be all in the same place at the same time, either. In another experience I had while taking an afternoon nap, I felt someone actually come and get me and pull me out of my body. That’s something that I have experienced pretty often, but it’s usually at night and I only remember the first few seconds of being out of body before falling unconscious. This time, it was during the day and I was lucid for every detail.

They – whoever they were, I assume a guide, as I couldn’t see them, just feel them – had me by the wrist and I was being pulled up, up, up… higher and higher. I assume we were traveling to the outer levels of the astral plain.

I ended up in something that was straight out of – well, a dream. It was a floating Japanese dojo in the sky. While I was there – I was actually thinking about being somewhere else. I was thinking about seeing a friend, and I found myself there – actually, I found myself in two other places simultaneously, besides the dojo where I currently was. I was walking with the person I was thinking about outside somewhere where there were mountains, talking, and I was also standing in front of them while they were at work. I could see them sitting at their desk working on a computer, but they couldn’t see me. I touched them on the face, but they didn’t react.

I think that I was in all of these places at the same time, but because our brains process things in linear fashion, they appeared to me more like scenes that were spliced in, and that’s how I experienced them.

Levels of Consciousness

While I was in the dojo, I was very conscious and lucid, but it was different. Typically when you’re lucid in a dream, you become aware that you are dreaming and are able to control the dream – but you’re still “you” for all intents and purposes.

While I was in the dojo, I was totally lucid, but I wasn’t attempting to make things happen. I was still sort of just experiencing it, but I had also lost all thoughts and memories of who I was here on earth. I also didn’t really have a need for control. It’s hard to explain, I guess. It’s just a very different level of consciousness from what you experience while in your body, or while dreaming, or even while lucid dreaming.

When it was time to come back, I found myself descending in a hot air balloon, and then I “woke up” in a bed in a house… very “Dorothy returns from Oz” feeling, except this was part actually was a dream. I was no longer lucid or conscious. Just dreaming. And then I woke up again, but for real this time. It was as if I was coming back down through varying levels of consciousness before fully waking up.

Astral Projection Techniques

If you’re interested in learning astral projection for yourself, there’s a lot of information out there. I was lucky enough to sit through a talk by William Buhlman of the Monroe Institute (where they study astral projection) where he gave us a seminar on some of his own techniques. He’s got lots of books that you can purchase and there’s plenty of information at the Monroe Institute website.

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