How Separation Consciousness Masks Itself In Spiritual Unity

How Separation Consciousness Masks Itself In Spiritual Unity

How Separation Consciousness Masks Itself In Spiritual Unity

In the spiritual community, we talk a lot about oneness and unity, and you may occasionally hear the term “separation consciousness.”

Separation consciousness is a lower level of awareness wherein a person cannot perceive the interconnectedness of all beings or their connection to their own divinity and God/Source.

You’ll see a lot of New Agers refer to this as the reason why we aren’t able to recognize our spiritual oneness and they will attribute it to the human ego, but separation consciousness goes much deeper than just the energetic and personal level, it’s also manifested into the world around us as tribalism. We have different groups and factions that see themselves as being independent of one another, and in many instances, diametrically opposed, for example, Republicans vs. Democrats, capitalism vs. socialism, fascism vs. communism, etc.

Within the spiritual community, the concept of a diametric opposition in and of itself is often labeled as separation consciousness, but what many of these people don’t realize is that much of their own doctrine is also infiltrated by separation consciousness.

Individualism in the West

Individualism is a social theory that places heavy emphasis on self worth, self-reliance, individuality, personal freedom, and personal responsibility. It is extremely evident in Western culture, particularly in the United States. The very concept of the American Dream–that if one works hard enough, they will achieve prosperity–is rooted in individualistic thinking.

This in and of itself is not a bad thing. It’s healthy for people to have a personal sense of independence rather than being codependent, being self-reliant is a valuable skill to cultivate, and we do all need to have a healthy sense of responsibility for ourselves.

That said, when the values of individualism are taken to an extreme, it becomes toxic just like anything else. Extreme individualism assumes that everyone in the collective is independently responsible for their own circumstances. One’s worth to the collective is often measured by their level of material success and that worth is largely expected to be earned and proven by hard work. In other words, this line of thinking correlates a person’s worth as a human being with their ability to produce goods and amass wealth.

Extreme individualism dehumanizes people by only valuing their economic output. It ignores or dismisses complex social factors and systemic oppression, and implies that anyone who has been systemically disadvantaged is simply lazy–i.e. unworthy. This is nowhere more apparent than in the prosperity gospel preached by many Christian Evangelicals that says god rewards good people with financial success, which automatically implies that poor people are unworthy of God’s love (even though Jesus himself said blessed are the poor…).

Extreme individualism also often leaves the individualist feeling as though they owe nothing to the collective other than to be a hard worker, which allows them to avoid social responsibility and accountability. This, of course, also allows the individualist to avoid having to feel responsible or be held accountable for the way their actions may affect the collective they live in.

Any time someone chooses “my rights” and “my freedoms” over and above what is good for the whole of society, they are acting from separation consciousness.

Westernized (Americanized) Spirituality

Extreme individualism is antithetical to unity consciousness, because it values one’s self above the collective. It doesn’t view the collective holistically as “one.”

This philosophy shows up in spirituality most often dressed as Law of Attraction, manifestation, and extreme personal empowerment rhetoric:

  • You are the absolute creator of your reality
  • Energy flows where attention goes / what you pay attention to becomes real
  • You are responsible for all of your negative experiences
  • Your scarcity mentality is responsible for your financial situation
  • No one will love you until you love yourself
  • Surround yourself with people who are living the lifestyle you want to have

These concepts reinforce unworthiness, ignore collective karma, disregard the effects of trauma and abuse, and dismiss the consequences of societal structures that oppress others by assuming that the oppressed have a victim mentality and are simply manifesting their own abuse. You are not responsible for your trauma, but you are responsible for healing your trauma, and in order for trauma to be healed and abusive karmic cycles to end, abusers must be held accountable along with the culture that enables them.

Learn why we don’t manifest abuse.

The idea that we are the absolute creators of our reality is an especially obvious example of separation consciousness because it completely ignores the existence of everyone else on the planet and is the polar opposite of the much touted concept in spirituality that “we are all connected.” You are the absolute creator of your thoughts and beliefs about reality only after you’ve deconditioned yourself from childhood and societal programming and healed your trauma. However, you are not the absolute creator of your physical reality and your actions have real repercussions and consequences that affect other people.

“Energy flows where attention goes” and “what you pay attention to becomes your reality” applies on an energetic level and within your belief systems, and only manifests in the real world through the actions (or inactions) that you take with regard to those belief systems. If one is not careful of how they apply this platitude, it can greatly contribute to spiritual and emotional bypassing. It is the core belief that results in spiritual people ignoring acts of violence, abuse, and systemic oppression.

In spirituality, we recognize that every human being is inherently worthy of being loved, even the ones we don’t necessarily like. That worthiness also extends to having their basic survival needs met. Love and survival isn’t something that human beings should have to earn.

The concept that we should have to earn love, as well as the perception of good and evil comes from separation consciousness:

When we incarnate here, we forget who we really are (that we are love and that everything is love) and in that forgetfulness, we have the perception that there is a lack of love–that love is scarce.


Fear-based belief systems are rooted in duality–the concept that there is a polarization of good and evil. They have not yet recognized that the foundation of the Universe is love, and the only thing that makes it appear as fear is their own limited understanding of it. – Why Fear-Based Beliefs Are Distorted

Individualism is also largely behind the explosion of The Secret and Law of Attraction and why business coaches have now integrated manifestation techniques into their marketing rhetoric as business gimmicks. These people have no true commitment to inner work because they are primarily motivated by desire, success, and money.

This attitude is also extremely evident in hustle culture, which reinforces individualistic philosophy, consistently shames people for not being productive, and neglects the importance of self-care and balance. When you say “surround yourself with people who are living the lifestyle you want to have” as applied to material wealth, it eliminates the perspectives the majority of the (poor) people in the collective and “others” them as unworthy of your time and attention. Instead, I suggest you surround yourself with people who demonstrate the values you wish to embody: integrity, depth, accountability, authenticity, humility.

Learn about materialistic spirituality.

Finally, from a spiritual perspective, our sense of individuality is our ego and it is the literal mechanism that allows us to experience separateness. When one only recognizes themselves as the absolute god of their individual physical reality, and does not recognize that everyone else on the planet is co-creating a physical existence along with them because we are all, collectively, God, well that’s the ultimate level of narcissism and the epitome of separation consciousness.

Spiritual Hierarchies

The hierarchical view of spirituality that labels some beings as more advanced or more enlightened than others is another way separation consciousness can show up in spirituality.

When narcissism invades spirituality, labels like lightworker and ascended master, psychic, intuitive, empath, incarnate angel, etc. become avenues for people to set themselves apart from everyone else–mainly by presenting the illusion that they are “better than.”

Pay attention who uses these labels and how much humility they express. Anyone using them as an avenue to accrue power, authority, or attention are operating from separation consciousness.

Healthy Interdependence

When you lean too far in one direction, individualism becomes materialistic selfishness and narcissism, and can also lead people to become too independent and avoid meaningful connection. Human beings are social creatures. We need each other, and we require connection in order to be mentally healthy. But when you go too far in the other direction it manifests as codependent relationships, neediness, energetic vampirism, and entitlement. For this reason, individualism espouses some important concepts that can be valuable when they are recognized in their proper context and not taken to an extreme.

In order for us to have a healthy sense of individuality, we must find balance and recognize the importance of healthy interdependence. While we are all individuals, we are also incredibly interconnected and our actions affect one another. This is what spirituality is attempting to teach us. This is unity consciousness.

Many of the concepts I mentioned earlier that spiritual people attempt to shun or avoid in the name of oneness because they view them to be dualistic and diametrically opposed are, in reality, unity consciousness opposing separation consciousness.

By condemning or avoiding these things, the spiritual community is actually engaging in spiritual bypassing and preventing the very ascension they claim to be here to facilitate!

Learn about spiritual bypassing and ascension.

We have to observe the lesson in the energies of Aquarius where the individual is valued just as much as the individual’s contribution to the collective. Aquarius recognizes that our unique gifts and experiences are our very contribution to that collective.

Start asking yourself some important questions:

  • Where have I been embodying separation consciousness in my spirituality?
  • Where have I been embodying separation consciousness in other areas of my beliefs and attitudes?
  • Who are the people promoting separation consciousness in the form of extreme individualism?
  • How can I bring myself back into balance and support the liberation of the collective, not just myself?


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A Shift of the Ages: What Does The New Paradigm Look Like?

A Shift of the Ages: What Does The New Paradigm Look Like?

A Shift of the Ages: What Does The New Paradigm Look Like?

As you’re probably well aware of by now, 2020 has us closing out a multitude of astrological cycles in the outer planets, which represent karma, paradigms, and generational transformation:

The South Node is in the mix with the 2020 conjunction, whereas the North Node was in the mix in 1285. The karma of what we sowed over the last 735 years with regard to Capricorn-related themes (imperialism, raw ambition, competition, tradition and conservatism, and the systems and institutions we built around those values) is coming to be collected in 2020. The other big difference between the two is that in 2020, Pluto, Saturn, and Jupiter are actually forming a triple conjunction in Capricorn (meaning they are each within 5 degrees of one another), which hasn’t happened in 4,000 years, according to this astrologer.

As you can see, there’s a multitude of energetic shifts happening in the cosmos at various layers in the collective consciousness all within the same very short timeframe. We are simultaneously wrapping up karmic cycles within the micro- and the macrocosm, which collectively feels like one giant lurch forward into a fresh new energy on many levels–a seismic paradigm shift. Big deal, yeah?

The highest level, we are moving from heavy, dense earth element energy and values, and as Saturn, Jupiter, and Pluto move into Aquarius over the next four years, into lighter air element energy and values. I’ve been talking quite a bit this year about how big the astrology of 2020 is.

Last week I highlighted many of the big transits we’ve had in 2020 and the effect they’ve had on the current collective, and I’ve talked at length about the big themes that we’re going to see when we officially crash into Aquarius and start building this new paradigm. I have not, however, gone into any great detail about how this Aquarian energy will play out on the global stage on this platform. I’ve been discussing it at length these last couple of weeks in my Facebook group, so I thought I’d touch on it over here as well.

Pluto Conjunct Saturn: The “Me” Generation Gives Way to the “We” Generation

I can’t talk about where we’re going in great detail without once again touching on where we’ve been. One of the biggest changes happening right now is a power shift between generations. As of 2019, Millennials, the oldest of which were born on the cusp of the last Pluto-Saturn conjunction in 1982-1984, surpassed the Baby Boomers, the oldest of whom were born on the cusp of the previous Pluto-Saturn conjunction in 1947, as the largest adult generation.

Baby Boomers have been nicknamed the “Me” generation due to their self-involved qualities, prioritizing individualization above social responsibility. That played out in very Capricorn-esqe themes of social status, consumerism, and conservatism, valuing tradition and upholding the status quo. As a result, the policies enacted while this group was in power were mostly self-serving, and we are watching the consequences of those policies be laid bare by this year’s Pluto and Saturn conjunction.

By contrast, Millennials and Gen Z are very different generations. They are far more ethnically and culturally diverse than their predecessors, with nearly 50% of them being people of color (compared to the Baby Boomer generation, which is 70% white), and they hold far more progressive values that reflect Aquarian ideals around community and social responsibility, inclusiveness, fairness, social justice, a love of technological innovation, doing things differently, and humanitarianism.

The Indigo Generation

Several years ago in a Facebook group far far away, I posited that the entire Millennial generation were the third wave of Indigos that many new agers spoke about who were supposed to have been born in the 80s (in other words, the criticisms from the article I just linked to that “everyone thinks their child is an Indigo” is moot, because it’s the entire generation. Yes, that means every child IS an Indigo). The general idea was that this was a group of souls who incarnated on earth in three waves, the last of which came in the 80s with a specific mission to disrupt the current paradigm and help rebuild a new one.

In addition to having the same Saturn/Pluto conjunction baked into their natal charts, the first wave of Millennials born during that conjunction also have Neptune at the Galactic Center. As one of my favorite astrologers and long-time friend, Susan Grace, likes to say, this means that these individuals have a direct line to God/Source’s plan for the universe. They are intuitively connected to and in tune with spirit.

The values and consciousness of the Millennial and Gen Z generations have overtaken that of the Baby Boomer generation as the dominant energy on the planet. This is a huge shift, and as these eldest members of the Millennial generation–the ones with Saturn and Pluto conjunct in their charts and Neptune at the Galactic Center–begin to come into political power, they’re going to bring with them cultural revolution, government structures, and policies that will remake the world in this new progressive Aquarian consciousness.

What Does That Look Like In Practice?

Energetic shifts are not finite, they flow in waves. You’ll often see manifestations of new energies years before they become dominant and you’ll be able to watch them gain steam. You’ve already seen glimpses of it in the world around you today: science and technology have made exponential progress since the 80s and we see leaps in technology in relatively short periods of time. That’s an Aquarian trend, and as we’ve approached this energy shift, you’ve seen technology rapidly ramp up. We’ve also seen social changes occur in a similar fashion with social reform including civil rights movements, women’s rights movements, LGBTQ+ rights movements, etc. We are beginning to progress exponentially as a society, largely due to technological progress that enables a wider access to information and education–that’s the build-up to Aquarius.

Science And Technology Reshape The World As We Know It

I mentioned early in this post that the rapid and exponential growth of scientific and technological discovery was a harbinger of Aquarius. The progress we’ve made in the last 100 years was simply the opening act. Imagine how the main event is going to go down!

The difference we will see here, though, is that Capricorn’s influence–the pursuit of technological advancement in the name of the almighty dollar above everything else–is going to wane and instead, we’ll start to see scientific and technological advancement for the more altruistic purposes of solving society’s greatest challenges. Tech startups with mission-driven cultures instead of profit-driven cultures, will become the norm.

I already see this happening at the university where I work, in a tech entrepreneurship program where I mentor undergraduate students. The program director teaches them to think about solving global problems that they have an emotional investment in, rather than coming up with get rich quick schemes. I teach them to discover their core values and how to run their business from that set of values. Profit is never one of those values.

Communications Goes High-Tech

I think we’ll also see a greater emphasis placed on socially-responsibility for communications platforms like social media and cable news networks over the next couple of years as Saturn enters Aquarius. Under an Aquarian sky, tech companies like Facebook and YouTube and potentially even partisan news outlets such as Fox news will eventually be held accountable in some fashion for allowing misinformation, disinformation, conspiracy rhetoric, and hate speech to spread unchecked simply as an avenue to make more money. We’re already seeing the calls for accountability from the collective. When Pluto arrives in 2024, we may see these channels completely transform, from a technological perspective and/or from a mission perspective, or else fall away completely.

One of the problems we face with the rapid pace of technological progression is that many times, human cognitive abilities and social evolution can’t keep up with the pace. The “fake news” revolution of 2016 is a prime example of how technology moved more quickly than society could adjust, and many were unable to identify credible news sources on the internet from from those that were propaganda.

Technology itself may even be the answer, as many of the researchers I work with are developing AI-enabled algorithms to identify lies and misinformation on the internet, as well as social bias. As we move into Aquarius, these technologies may become widely adopted and do the critical thinking for us by identifying and eliminating propaganda so we don’t have to. Regardless, the technologically savvy Millennial and Gen Z kids who grew up in the internet age are far more equipped to spot online bullshit than their Baby Boomer predecessors, by sheer nature of earlier exposure, which is why they also heavily value transparency.

A Decentralized Workplace

One of the most obvious Aquarian themes of 2020 is the Zoom workplace. For years, CEOs and other business leaders of the Baby Boomer generation insisted that hard work only happened AT work. The concept of working from home was completely out of the question, even in the face of data from studies of the more lax work culture of Silicon Valley which suggested employees (mainly Millennials) who were allowed unlimited vacation, casual dress codes, and a flexible work schedule were happier, and thus, more productive.

Then came 2020, where the entire corporate world (with a couple of notable exceptions…#clearlyrunbyboomers) was forced to to adapt to a remote work environment…and succeeded, largely thanks to recent improvements in internet communications technology. There’s no longer a question about whether or not people can be productive from home. In many instances, companies are finding that employees are MORE productive when they aren’t being constantly interrupted in an office environment.

As communications technologies continue to improve, and Millennials take over workplace management, expect a more flexible, hybrid work environment to take hold. The daily grind of a corporate office as a predominant work culture is now a thing of the past.

Collaboration Over Competition

A couple of years ago, I got fed up with the commercialization of spirituality and I actually quit my own blog for almost a full year because I made the decision that if this is where spirituality was headed, I wanted no part of it. Just before I did that, I wrote an epic instagram rant, the most poignant snippets of which are:

“Traditional business models and marketing strategies are rooted in capitalism, greed, and manipulation tactics involving unconscious psychological triggers that drive you to make purchases based on them.


“Marketing and advertising  currently operate in old paradigm on a foundation of social Darwinism which is inherently at odds with spirituality at its core. It’s competition based, pitting us against one another and keeping us divided, sending us subconscious messages that there’s not enough clients, not enough money, not enough time, and the only solution is to BUY MORE programs, more tools, more workshops, more consultants, more courses, and on and on and on.


“Fundamentally, this model cannot survive because it is out of alignment with New Paradigm, and neither can the people who are profiting from it. For those of us who refuse to sell our souls to the business coaching gods, the message is clear: it’s time to evolve the way we promote ourselves and do business.”


The old, competition-based model is founded on Darwinian survival of the fittest. Out-maneuver and overpower your competition, and cleverly and subtly tell everyone how much better you are than everyone else. But here’s the thing: “best” is an illusion. There is only “different.” Especially in the realm of personal development and spirituality, “best” doesn’t exist. There is no spiritual authority. That is both the beauty and the madness of it.


Healing and intuition are not products or fucking marketing gimmicks. They are THE product of thousands of tears, ache, pain, and the deep soul work of burning down the illusions of many versions of ourselves. How dare anyone hijack that and use it to sell some bullshit business scheme.


Undeniable truth: You can only teach others, lead others, and heal others from the same depth at which you have learned, led, and healed yourself. Period.

Then 2020 came along and rocked the spiritual community, bringing to light the white-washing of spirituality, the economic inequality of the coaching hierarchy, the gate-keeping, and the spiritual bypassing, revealing the shadow of the spiritual community itself and it’s fundamental reliance on a system that capitalizes on human trauma. To be clear, I’m not saying that spiritual practitioners shouldn’t make money. I’m saying that charging $5,000 per person for an entry-level workshop when that’s more than most people make in a month and using messaging that intentionally trigger’s someone’s trauma as a way to get them to make a purchase is excessive, socially irresponsible, and more about getting rich than about helping people.

As we move into Aquarius, this elitist form of business–especially among spiritual practitioners–will no longer be viable. As I stated in my instagram post:

The new model of self-promotion barely involves self at all. It’s community-based and purpose-driven. Like-minded entrepreneurs collaborate and cross-promote to lift each other up–together. We recognize that there’s enough to go around for everyone and that by working WITH one another, we can all benefit AND make a difference for the people we help. Together we rise.

Defund the Police is an Aquarian Concept

Aquarian energy (particularly when Pluto moves in in 20204) brings with it new, innovative, and visionary transformation that upon first glance, seems “too radical” to those used to the old paradigm. The Defund the Police movement is an example of a shift from a Saturn in Capricorn energy (law, order, rules, enforcement, top-down) to a Saturn in Aquarius energy (community-based, holistic, bottom-up, innovative) that many have balked at because it is so outside the current line of thinking. How so?

The current policing model places an added emphasis on policing in high-crime communities, convictions, and prison sentences with little emphasis on rehabilitation of offenders. It doesn’t address the societal issues that are the root cause of violence and crime to begin with, it only treats the symptom, and in the course of treating that symptom, actually ends up perpetuating the problem since there’s not much emphasis on rehabilitation. In other words, it contributes to a bloated prison system where inmates are likely to be (re)traumatized and end up as repeat offenders.

The concept of defunding the police is a more trauma-informed approach about diverting excessive funding from law enforcement operations that would normally be used toward acquiring expensive, military-grade equipment and weapons and over-policing in high crime communities, and instead using that money to fund more community-focused initiatives, social workers, and other mental health professionals whose aim is to intervene within the community and prevent crime before it actually happens, thus solving the issue at its root cause: poverty and lack of resources.

Those seeking to defund the police consider defunding an initial step toward creating an entirely different model of community-led public safety. It is not about completely eradicating policing on a dime. It’s about re-investing in the community to the point that law enforcement can be scaled back simply because there’s no longer a demand. It’s also not targeted at your small town, low crime police departments. It’s aimed at mostly at large, inner-city police organizations and neighborhoods, like New York City, which has a police budget larger than the military budget of most countries (over $10 BILLION).

Can you imagine a world where police officers no longer have to experience stress and mental health trauma on a scale that they do now? Can you imagine a world where teenagers in low-income communities have places to go after school and can spend time with people who will mentor them to become better people, rather than getting involved with gangs at an early age and ending up in jail before they turn 20? Can you imagine a world where a person having a mental health crisis gets the help they need, instead of having the very real possibility of being shot because the person responding is afraid and doesn’t have the training necessary to help them?

In the long run, this holistic, community-based approach saves lives. Not only the lives of people who might end up in the criminal justice system, and the people who are killed by police when they’re not actually a danger, but also the lives of police officers who will no longer need to be frequently put in situations where they face violent offenders and fear for their lives.

The first model is one of crime and punishment based on top-down, rigid authoritarian principles (very Saturnian/Capricorn energy). The second is an Aquarian approach that focuses on the problem in a holistic, community-based, bottom-up fashion. It’s very new and visionary by comparison. Aquarian-related things are often shunned as “radical” at least initially, because they’re so forward-thinking that it’s a shock to the established order (and Capricorn is nothing if not the established order), but if you actually sit down and rationalize it, it makes logical sense. You’ll also notice that most of the resistance to this–even among the Democrats–comes from the Baby Boomer generation, while most of its proponents tend to be Millennials.

Expect community-based, holistic approaches to solving social issues like this to gain steam as we head into 2021 and beyond.

Support for the Trans Community and More Diversity

There’s also been quite a bit of attention placed on attitudes and violence toward the trans community this year, which hits some Aquarian checkboxes in a couple of ways. For one, it’s a piece of Aquarius’ humanitarian focus and support for marginalized communities. Aquarius is the sign of innovation and the community, so social justice nests here comfortably. But not only that, Aquarius represents those who might not fit neatly into an established order and often become social outcasts as a result. Anything that bucks the status quo, including themes of androgyny and gender non-conformity, are Aquarius territory.

Those who identify as nonbinary and trans receive big support from Aquarian energy, and I think we’ll see a lot more focus and discussion on social acceptance for trans individuals as well as ideas around gender identity in the next ten years, and individuals who identify as such will fight for–and win–their place in a more inclusive society. We’re already seeing this happen in 2020 as some of the first trans and nonbinary representatives were elected to state legislatures, as well as some of the first openly-gay black politicians, and record numbers of women in the GOP, record numbers of Native Americans, and my home state of Missouri elected its first Black congresswoman.

Also ruling democracy, Aquarius recognizes the more inclusive we become with our elected representation, the more inclusive of a society we will build for all of our community members, not just the straight, cisgender, white men. Expect our legislatures to become more and more diverse as Millennials begin to fill local and national posts, bringing with them the much-needed voices and perspectives of their own communities.

Reimagine Your World

Capricorn energy gravitates toward stability and upholds the status quo. Aquarius energy asks us to reimagine the way think about (and subsequently do) things. COVID reimagined the way we go to work every day. Defund the police reimagines community policing in a new way that we haven’t seen before. Nonbinary and transgender people push us to reimagine the way we think about gender and gender roles. What other facets of society might we reimagine as Pluto enters Aquarius? The answer is all of them–just as the Saturn/Pluto conjunction of 2020 has revealed to us all of society’s flaws.

As a result of the pandemic, we’re going to begin to reimagine just about everything. Our education system, our healthcare system, our election system, our unemployment system, our social safety nets, our communications systems, our housing systems–everything that COVID broke or forced an adaption to will need to be re-evaluated and reimagined, and with Aquarius involved, it’s going to look at it from the standpoint of “Does this work for everybody?” and not just “Does this work for me?”

Some of this change may feel too radical for those who fear change and feel safer inside the comfort zone of Capricorn. Aquarius is often misunderstood because it’s so forward-thinking, and in many instances the radical change it espouses has been demonized by those who might lose power because of it. No one likes uncomfortable feelings of being out of control, and the typical reaction to those feelings is to dismiss change, ridicule change, then fight change, tooth and nail. But the thing is, evolution is inevitable, and the harder you fight against it, the more painful it is. And sometimes what looks radical from where you are now is only scary because you’re so used to the pile of shit you’ve been sitting in.

“A strange new light can be just as frightening as the dark.” – Dolores, West World

In 2020, we’ve born witness to the consequences of inflexibility and clinging to the status quo. That’s the theme of Saturn (inflexibility) conjunct Pluto (change) in Capricorn (the status quo). That conjunction came in like Miley Cyrus riding a Wrecking Ball, and now, on December 21st, Jupiter is going to give it one more big push, which will continue to show us that evolution is coming, whether we like it or not.

This evolution in particular is written in the stars. Its name is Aquarius. Its motto is progress. And its mantra is “First they ignore you. Then they laugh at you. Then they fight you. Then you win.”



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2020 Year-End Astrology: A Once in 40 Lifetimes Event

2020 Year-End Astrology: A Once in 40 Lifetimes Event

2020 Year-End Astrology: A Once in 40 Lifetimes Event

I‘ve been posting fairly regularly about the astrology of 2020 in my Facebook group and on Instagram this year. We’ve been under some intense skies all year long, starting with a conjunction between Saturn and Pluto in Capricorn on January 12th that brought about a global pandemic and subsequent economic failure, revealing the cracks in our societal infrastructure everywhere from unemployment to healthcare to our food supply. These two slow moving planets have been dancing together in this pattern all year.

Jupiter swooped into the party beginning in March, moving into close conjunction with Pluto three times this year, each time setting off a new wave of positive cases. This Saturn-Pluto-Jupiter stellium is sticking around for the rest of 2020 and it’s a once-in-4,000-year event. These three planets have not been together in Capricorn since times so ancient, the Egyptians were the world power.

In late May, Saturn stuck a toe into Aquarius, sparking a tidal wave of social justice outcries just before retrograde season came upon us this summer to make sure to back the car over us a couple more times just to emphasize the point.

As we headed into the fall, we experienced an intense Mercury retrograde in Scorpio and Mars retrograde in Aries, fueling paranoia, anger, and conspiracy around the U.S. election. Mercury stationed direct on election day and Mars just ten days later, alleviating a whole lot of collective angst and pulling us back from the point of boiling over, but the universe had something bigger in store…

At the beginning of November, Jupiter began to catch up to Saturn for a once-in-every-200 years conjunction–STILL WITHIN THE BOUNDS OF OUR ONCE-IN-EVERY-4,000-YEARS STELLIUM– which will culminate in the first degree of Aquarius on our Winter Solstice, December 21st…and did I mention there’s a full moon eclipse in Gemini during this period as well??? Holy shit that’s an intense sky.

But What Does it MEAN?

This period of time between the beginning of November and late January will transformational in ways we have not seen on this planet in literally ages. Pluto, Jupiter, and Saturn in Capricorn have laid waste to life as we know it in 2020. The things that could not stand the tests of time have been rent asunder. Imagine emerging from hiding after a category 5 hurricane and surveying the damage (yet another apt analogy for 2020, which saw a record Atlantic hurricane season). Anything not left standing was too weak to survive and must be rebuilt, and so we must rebuild our society. But this time, it will be built on a more solid foundation: one that serves everyone, and not just the few at the top.

The full moon eclipse on November 30th is a final energetic purge before Saturn and Jupiter make an intense conjunction at one degree Aquarius on December 21st. For the last 200 years until now, the two planets have been meeting in earth signs. This next conjunction kicks off a new cycle taking place in air signs. To top it off, this conjunction is also the closest these two planes have been in 400 years (this just means there’s a more exacting force between them than usual).

Given that these are slower moving, outer planets, they have a larger effect on global themes, and with them now moving into air signs, specifically Aquarius for the next 20 years, we can start to get a good idea of what those themes are.

“Thus 2020 is at the end of a two-hundred-year era of Jupiter and Saturn uniting in earth signs. While the earth element signifies focus on material security and consolidation of resources that is resistant to change, the era of air will bring disruption to established orders and dramatic changes in collective ideas and the way we communicate. Vitally, not only will Jupiter and Saturn be uniting in Aquarius, they will also be forming a catalytic square aspect with Uranus in Taurus. At this pivotal moment in our journey, the lightning bolts of Jupiter and Uranus will not only bring down old societal structures but will also impel us to release old personal dreams and drama we have been attached to. There will be new challenges and unknown potential arising as we begin a new era of Jupiter and Saturn that we will need to make space for in our lives. During 2020 ask yourself what you need to leave behind and what you truly desire to carry forward.” – Jupiter Conjunct Saturn in Aquarius

Pluto doesn’t kick over into Aquarius until 2024. Saturn heading in for the next two years is laying the groundwork, and this conjunction with Jupiter on the date of the winter solstice is the kickoff party. If you look at the symbolic significance of the winter solstice, it marks the longest night, death, rebirth, and renewal into a new solar year as light begins to become the prevailing force over darkness. Consider it an annual dark night of the soul.

We will look back at what happens between now and the end of January of 2021 as the beginning of a turning point into a new era, on a small scale for the next 20 years, on a larger scale for the next 200, and an even larger scale for the next 4,000. The New Paradigm is here, and we’re about to build it. I plan to write much more in-depth about what that’s going to look like in the real world sometime in the next week, so stay tuned.

In the meantime…

A Message From My Meditation

I had a very informative meditation a few days ago that I shared in the Facebook group and thought I’d share here as well, because it’s very much tied to the energies of 2020:

Earth is in the process of an energetic division right now. Lower energies are splitting off to their own path for further evolution, and higher energies will continue on its own track.
There’s a lot of energy workers incarnate right now with the expressed purpose of anchoring in higher frequencies, and they’re actually strategically located across the planet, creating a sort of living energy grid and that’s helping with the transition at this time.

These are incredibly HUMBLE people that have kept their egos in check. That was emphasized… they wanted souls that would not get sucked into ego traps like being a spiritual influencer, or otherwise having this sort of, “I have spiritual knowledge that you don’t have” kind of mentality, because the people who got heavily caught in the ego trap are taking the lower vibe rout. There’s no judgement behind that at all, it’s viewed from a very neutral perspective, like an energetic choice or preference. So the people we’re talking about here won’t be the type of people to go around proclaiming it, or using spiritual knowledge as a way to puff up their ego. They’re very humble, dedicated, grounded individuals who probably don’t even realize this is why they are here. The ones that run around claiming that they’re special are the ones that got stuck.

In my meditation, I saw this collective as being a “service-to-self” oriented group. People with too much unhealed trauma with no willingness to look at it, people who’ve been unable to cope with this year’s energies in a healthy way and fell into denial and delusion about the world around them, including conspiracy theories and hoaxes. I’m not saying all of them will be taking that path, just the ones with baseline energies that are too heavy to ascend with this higher track of evolution. Those who still have the capacity to awaken and heal won’t miss the boat.

Some of us view this as a time of severe struggle and we’re feeling a lot of anxiety and fear, but that’s only the appearance from the outside. Yes, there’s very heavy energies across earth right now which are being purged, and that’s what you’re feeling that makes you think this is a struggle and that it could potentially fail, but “It’s already done.” (that’s the phrase they used).

Many of us wonder how to save those who are caught up in those lower energies and the answer is you can’t. That’s the path they’ve chosen. Instead, focus on what you can do for yourself and those around you who are receptive to build your new world. There is no more truth to be revealed. It’s all out on the table, so there’s no need to uncover or tear down more. The dominoes have fallen and the collapse is on course. Now is a time for focusing on the future. Where do we go from here? What will we create? How should we go about doing that? Visualize. Brainstorm. Collaborate. Create.

Please keep in mind this is how things are at the 700,000 foot level view. The big themes. It’s not necessarily how it’s going to look down on the ground level where all of that heavy energy is stirred up, so try not to look at this as an invalidation of how you’re feeling right now, but rather, a reassurance than everything is going to be ok.

As several of the tarot readers I watch on YouTube always say, “Everything happens energetically before it’s manifested physically.” The energetic piece is “already done.” We’re just waiting for the dust to settle and the physical manifestation to trickle in.

That whole focusing on the future and what we want to build is the energy behind the upcoming Saturn/Jupiter conjunction in Aquarius. In Tarot terms, we’re at an Ace level at this point, or the Fool. A sea of new potential. Tap into it and use it to your advantage. It will also give you a positive focus in the months ahead as the dust is settling.

The Shi(f)t Has Hit The Fan

The Shi(f)t Has Hit The Fan

The Shi(f)t Has Hit The Fan

In the Tarot world, we have a common label we use for when the shit hits the fan: a Tower moment.

The Tower is a major arcana card that represents having the rug pulled out from under you, suddenly, and swiftly. The imagery depicts a tower of some kind being struck by lightning from above, crumbling, often on fire, with people falling from it.

This, dear humans, is just such a moment in which we find ourselves in our collective history.

Now, before you go feeling all doom and gloom, every card in the Tarot has a double meaning, and the Tower is no different. It’s got a strong Plutonian theme built into it–destruction, revelation of what is hidden, and rebirth.

The Tower represents the establishment. The status quo of your life. The old foundations which your current beliefs and reality are built upon. And the tower is falling apart. The one thing that we know about the Tower is that once it’s done crumbling, it brings us a new clarity through a change in perspective. In some ways, you can look at the tower as being a moment of apocalypse: an unveiling of that which was hidden from our consciousness. The exposure of the shadow. A massive shift in your worldview.

Any tower that is not strong enough to weather the storm, is because its foundations are faulty. Just like any old, dilapidated building susceptible to being shaken at its very foundations by sudden, natural forces, the tower must first be demolished and a new foundation laid so that we can build something more stable, more sustainable, and better.

Our tower–our establishment–is not weathering the current storm. This is because its foundations are faulty.

So what do we do in a collective Tower moment?

The harder one clings to the tower as it crumbles, the more difficult the situation will be.

I see the Tower as being very much in line with wishing for things to go back to “normal.” The people fear that our lifestyle is going to be stripped away.

But what was the card that comes before the Tower that represents the foundations of “normal” upon which it is built?

The Devil. Dun dun DUNNNNNNNNN.

Oooooh the Devil. Scary. But not really. The Devil card, associated with the astrological sign of Capricorn and the planet Saturn, often depicts two people bound to a demonic-looking figure with some form of an inverted pentagram. The five points of a pentagram represent the four elements with the addition of “spirit” as the point at the top. When a pentagram is inverted, such as with the Devil card, it represents the triumph of matter over spirit.

The Devil represents all of our negative habits, patterns, addictions, and the chains that bind us to them. The seduction of materialism and worldly pleasures being prioritized higher than our own connection with the divine. It represents illusions. It is literally a card of bondage and slavery to our own egoic desires. With the influence of Saturn thrown in, it is the original “comfort zone” and the systems and structures we’ve built around that comfort zone to keep it in place.


Being afraid that our civil liberties are going to be permanently taken away by some kind of conspiracy by a faceless global elite to turn us into a prison planet, believing we are losing our freedoms and struggling to maintain what once was–is clinging to the establishment status quo, because we were comfortable in a system where we profited and benefited from just enough freedom to keep us complacent, while millions across the globe suffered for our benefit.

The Truth is, we’ve never been truly free. We’ve been living with the illusion of freedom, slaves to our own misconstrued visions of material success which have built and nurtured the current systems we find ourselves in, and which have resulted in spiritual poverty. We created a gilded cage with golden bars and smiled in agreement with one another each time we laid another dollar bill on the altar of human greed.

All of the discomfort we are feeling collectively in this moment–the rage, the fear, the anxiety– is the revelation of our own addictions, misgivings, and the illusion of stability we held dear, and by clinging to what once was, we are clinging to the bars of our former cages, yearning for the chains that kept us bound because we fear that which we cannot yet see.

To quote Dolores from West World, a character whose most intrinsic drive was free herself and her kind from an illusory world where they were slaves to the lower desires and whims of mankind:

A strange new light can be just as frightening as the dark.

A New Hope

The way to survive the fall of the tower is to let it crumble and embrace the revelations and new vision for the future that it brings, and that vision appears in the form of the next card in the major arcana, the Star.

The star represents a guiding light from the Heavens that leads the way toward something new. It is a card full of hope and destiny. It is the card associated with Aquarius and the traditional imagery often depicts a young woman with a pitcher or cups of water, the same imagery that is reflected in the visuals associated with Aquarius.

Are you noticing that Saturn, Capricorn, Pluto and Aquarius are present in these cards just as they are currently present in our own sky, and that they are speaking about the same themes as I wrote a couple of weeks ago in relation to astrology?

When I pulled oracle cards yesterday, the card I drew when asking about humanity’s current situation was Hold Your Vision, and it’s very appropriate here with the Star.

The Star and its promise of unfettered possibility is where we are headed. But first, the Tower must crumble. Keep your eyes not on the things which are falling away, but toward the star that appears in the sky when the smoke clears, and start to envision what could be, because it’s coming and each of us will be tasked with creating it. It will not happen overnight. Building new things takes time, so start to ask yourself what you might contribute.



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2020 Year-End Astrology: A Once in 40 Lifetimes Event

I’m Coming Out of Retirement

I’m Coming Out of Retirement

Well hello, friends. It’s been a long time.

Given the state of affairs in the world today (global pandemic and crumbling economic system), it would seem the universe is putting out the call to lightworkers: All hands on deck. This is the moment you’ve been preparing for. So, here I am. Springing out of retirement to hold the lines.

In my very last post–almost a year ago now–I vehemently raged against the commercialization of spirituality and how many “coaches” had hijacked it and exploited it for financial gain, and that I refused to be a part of this movement if that’s what it was coming to. Fast forward about a year…enter global pandemic and worldwide financial and economic collapse.

Suddenly, over the course of two weeks, your bright career of instagram influencer-turned-millionaire business coach who charges $5,000 per program doesn’t mean jack shit. A good chunk of your millions went down the drain when the stock market crashed, and you’re having to improvise your instagram selfies because you can no longer hire professional photographers to take pictures of your ass in a thong while hanging out on the beach because of your entire state’s shelter-in-place order. And nobody’s buying your over-priced, culturally-appropriated branded home decor because everyone has more important things to worry about.

Now, more than ever, you are just like everyone else on this planet: filled with uncertainty about the future and susceptible to a disease that makes no distinctions between rich and poor, famous and faceless.

The universe has a funny sense of humor, eh?

By now, many of you may know that current events were predicted by astrologers. My friend and professional astrologer Susan Grace has been speaking of a global collapse that would begin in December of 2019 for four or five years now, and here we are.

Astrologers knew this collapse was coming because of the approaching conjunction between Pluto and Saturn in Saturn’s home sign of Capricorn–an astrological combination that hasn’t occurred since 1518, the height of disease, pestilence, famine, and mass hysteria which included witch trials and the Inquisition.

Archetypally, Pluto is the planet of death and resurrection–total transformation. Capricorn is the sign of authority figures, systems, and institutions of authority (governments, government officials, financial institutions, CEOs and corporations, etc.). Saturn rules Capricorn so its themes are very similar, except at the planetary level, it brings tests and challenges. The combination of Saturn and Pluto destroys what cannot stand the test for the purpose of rebuilding something better in its place.

Here’s a couple of great astrology articles about what all of this means:

Saturn Pluto Conjunction 2020 | Saturn in Capricorn 2017-2020

We are seeing all of this happening right now before our very eyes.

While astrology can’t predict the specific mechanism through which an event will occur, it can predict the general themes of the time. And a global pandemic tied to the planet of death and resurrection is pretty damn fitting.

It’s important to remember that every sign/planet/archetype is dualistic, meaning it has both a positive side and a shadow side, even if the planet in question is considered a malefic (meaning negative). Death’s silver lining is complete transformation and freedom from that which has held us back.

Pluto spends about 30 years in each sign, so it’s been in Capricorn for a while now, exposing secrets, lies, and corruption, and systematically dismantling patriarchy. Saturn’s conjunction here with it is the straw that breaks the camel’s back. It’s taking a jackhammer to any structure whose foundation has already cracked and made unstable by Pluto’s presence. This is the crumbling. What these two planets tear down now, they will rebuild as they move through Aquarius. Saturn will be there for two and a half years laying the foundation, and then Pluto will slowly pass through for another 30-year transit.

Aquarius rules groups, communities, technology, communication, and it’s the sign of the humanitarian. The world is about to change drastically over the next 35-40 years, and evolve toward a more community-focused system that operates for the good of the whole instead of a me-first attitude. Right now, we’re demolishing the old. Things are going to look ugly for a bit. But have faith that soon, we’re going to be rebuilding something shiny, new, and much more beautiful in its place.

Have faith that humanity will get trough this. I won’t say that it won’t be painful, as that’s the nature of Pluto–but only if you cling to that which is being destroyed. The old ways of living–competition, war, hoarding, selfishness, greed, and all things that spring from it, like capitalism, poverty, wage gaps, racism, misogyny–will be going the way of the dinosaurs. It can no longer survive where we are going.

Embrace the change as best you can, know that something better is coming, and you’ll ride the wave right into the Age of Aquarius.



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Finding Purpose in the New Paradigm

Finding Purpose in the New Paradigm

Finding Purpose in the New Paradigm

An update in regard to last week’s post and some of the reactions to it. I posted this in my Facebook group, but thought I should share it here as well. I have feelings and emotions that aren’t roses and sunshine, just like everybody else. Sometimes I just need to feel those feelings, deeply. I have had days and weeks that are far, far worse than what I wrote today over the last two years.

I vividly recall a day last summer, laying in my bed in so much emotional pain that the thought, “I’d feel so much better if I could just die,” actually went through my head.

I simply chose not to share those feelings with all of you. I journal them privately where no one sees them but me. And I’m still here. And I’m fine.

What I’m going through right now is a process. A very long, lengthy one. No amount of burying my head in the sand and pretending these feelings don’t exist is going to change my circumstances (and no amount of watching Abraham Hicks videos is going to speed up that process). I have to allow myself the time to reflect, and feel, and process. They’ll come and they’ll go. That’s the way it is.

Earlier in the year, I talked a bit about how, when you have a platform like this, people tend to have expectations of you and they forget that you’re a real person, too.

I’ve seen people have very unrealistic expectations of us “lightworkers.” I’ve had people project their own unrealistic expectations upon me, personally. I think, when people look at people like me and my friend and see us teaching these things, they tend to forget that we are people, too. They forget that we have our own path of growth, our own boundaries and our own weaknesses.


We, as spiritual teachers, face a kind of mounting pressure to be perfectly “spiritual” in every way – to lead perfect lives, to always be happy, and especially to sacrifice ourselves for others. – Healers Need Boundaries Too

This is a part of me that most of you have never been privy to, because I’ve never allowed you to be. I don’t need to be fixed. I just need people to hold space for me while I go through this and fix myself. That’s all.

If you’ve been following along since June, you’re already aware that the reason I’m here and the reason I’m going through all of this is purpose. I felt a deep, clear call to purpose that has pulled me to where I am right now. I didn’t know what it was. I didn’t know what it looked like. I just knew that I had to be here, of all places, and now, of all times. I’m still waiting for that purpose to reveal itself to me, and obviously, by my post last week, you realize this isn’t an easy thing for me to do.

I know that I’m not the only one who is seeking purpose, either. I’ve drawn more and more people to me lately who are doing just that. The last two readings I’ve done have been questions around life purpose. I always find those readings interesting because the information that comes out is just as relevant to me as it is for my clients. In the case of yesterday’s reading, everything that came out was exactly what I needed to hear as well.

I’ve been struggling to figure out how to find my purpose, and how to sustain myself while I go about doing that. I keep trying to make something happen by doing what has always worked for me in the past… but this isn’t the past. This is New Paradigm, and I’m not the person I was back then, and neither are you.

The thing about purpose is, you have to meet it half way. And you don’t meet it half way, necessarily, by just going out and trying to create it. Life is about evolving and being. You have to BE the person you need to be when you’re meant to embody that purpose.

To quote from the reading I did yesterday:

“Just as you’re trying to find purpose – your purpose is trying to find you. But there’s a divine timing to all things. In order for us to embody purpose, we have to be ready. That means we have to keep doing the work on ourselves to clear out anything that’s no longer serving us. We’re just vessels, after all, and in order to be a pure vessel, we have to put all of our own fears and ego aside and allow the universe to use us as was intended.”

I recognize that I’m still involved in that clearing out process. I’m on the tail end of it, I hope.

“A lot of finding our life purpose involves finding ourselves and honoring who we truly are and were always meant to be. That means letting the old version of ourselves fall away. So don’t worry about finding your purpose. Find yourself, and your purpose will find you.”

Even as I wrote those words, I knew they were also for me. Stop falling back on what you know, you’re not that person anymore. I’d been pulling cards for myself all week that were essentially saying the same thing: leave the old you behind. Leave your old career behind. Let it all go. This is something new. Something you haven’t seen before. Something unexpected. You don’t know what this looks like. Sit back, relax, and let it unfold: trust the universe.

Sitting back and doing nothing when you know you’re living on limited resources is really fucking hard. So I’ve been asking myself this whole week, “What do I do in the meantime?” I feel like I need to be working toward something. Doing something. And then, yesterday, came my answer. Work on yourself.

All the job applications and resumes are a distraction from working on myself. I’m spending hours a day putting energy into something that isn’t even a permanent solution to what I’m trying to achieve. I feel that whatever is coming for me isn’t going to be achieved this way. It’s going to be an opportunity that I never expected that presents itself in a fortuitous way. I’m not going to have to look for it. I’m not going to have to fight for it. By comparison to a typical job hunt, it’s going to be handed to me on a silver platter. I just have to be ready for that.

That takes a lot of trust, particularly in my situation, but then again, it takes a lot of trust to listen to a voice in your head when it tells you that you’re going to be packing up your shit and moving 1,000 miles away to a city where you know no one. So there it is. This will either happen as I’ve described, or I’ll end up penniless living in my mom’s guest room come next February. Here’s to hoping for the former.



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