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By Cheryl Marks Young

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My Bookshelf

Browse the books I own, am currently reading, or highly recommend for those on their spiritual path.

BOOKS FOR THE BEGINNER

Conversations With God Trilogy

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Conversations With God

by Neale Donald Walsch

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The Power of Now

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The Power of Now

By Eckhart Tolle

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Journey of Souls

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Journey of Souls

By Michael Newton

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BOOKS FOR THE INTERMEDIATE AND ADVANCED

Glynnis Has your Number

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Glynnis Has your Number

by Glynnis McCants

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The Electric Jesus

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The Electric Jesus

by Jonathan Talat Phillips

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Destiny of Souls

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Destiny of Souls

by Michael Newton

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The Dream Dictionary A-Z

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The Dream Dictionary A-Z

by Theresa Chung

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The Watkins Tarot Handbook

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The Watkins Tarot Handbook

by Naomi Ozaniek

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Many Lives, Many Masters

<img loading="lazy" width="800" height="800" src="https://i1.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/many-lives-many-masters.png?resize=800%2C800&ssl=1" alt="Many Lives, Many Masters" srcset="https://i1.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/many-lives-many-masters.png?w=800&ssl=1 800w, https://i1.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/many-lives-many-masters.png?resize=250%2C250&ssl=1 250w, https://i1.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/many-lives-many-masters.png?resize=300%2C300&ssl=1 300w, https://i1.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/many-lives-many-masters.png?resize=600%2C600&ssl=1 600w, https://i1.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/many-lives-many-masters.png?resize=157%2C157&ssl=1 157w, https://i1.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/many-lives-many-masters.png?resize=400%2C400&ssl=1 400w, https://i1.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/many-lives-many-masters.png?resize=510%2C510&ssl=1 510w, https://i1.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/many-lives-many-masters.png?resize=610%2C610&ssl=1 610w, https://i1.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/many-lives-many-masters.png?resize=150%2C150&ssl=1 150w" sizes="(max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px" class="et-waypoint et_pb_animation_off wp-image-8852" data-recalc-dims="1" />

Many Lives, Many Masters

By Brian Weiss

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Fuck It: The Ultimate Spiritual Way

<img loading="lazy" width="800" height="800" src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/fuck-it.png?resize=800%2C800&ssl=1" alt="Fuck It: The Ultimate Spiritual Way" srcset="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/fuck-it.png?w=800&ssl=1 800w, https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/fuck-it.png?resize=250%2C250&ssl=1 250w, https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/fuck-it.png?resize=300%2C300&ssl=1 300w, https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/fuck-it.png?resize=600%2C600&ssl=1 600w, https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/fuck-it.png?resize=157%2C157&ssl=1 157w, https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/fuck-it.png?resize=400%2C400&ssl=1 400w, https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/fuck-it.png?resize=510%2C510&ssl=1 510w, https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/fuck-it.png?resize=610%2C610&ssl=1 610w, https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/fuck-it.png?resize=150%2C150&ssl=1 150w" sizes="(max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px" class="et-waypoint et_pb_animation_off wp-image-8851" data-recalc-dims="1" />

Fuck It: The Ultimate Spiritual Way

by John C. Parkin

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The Custodians

<img loading="lazy" width="800" height="800" src="https://i0.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/the-custodians.png?resize=800%2C800&ssl=1" alt="The Custodians" srcset="https://i0.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/the-custodians.png?w=800&ssl=1 800w, https://i0.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/the-custodians.png?resize=250%2C250&ssl=1 250w, https://i0.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/the-custodians.png?resize=300%2C300&ssl=1 300w, https://i0.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/the-custodians.png?resize=600%2C600&ssl=1 600w, https://i0.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/the-custodians.png?resize=157%2C157&ssl=1 157w, https://i0.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/the-custodians.png?resize=400%2C400&ssl=1 400w, https://i0.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/the-custodians.png?resize=510%2C510&ssl=1 510w, https://i0.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/the-custodians.png?resize=610%2C610&ssl=1 610w, https://i0.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/the-custodians.png?resize=150%2C150&ssl=1 150w" sizes="(max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px" class="et-waypoint et_pb_animation_off wp-image-8853" data-recalc-dims="1" />

The Custodians

by Dolores Cannon

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The Convoluted Universe

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The Convoluted Universe

By Dolores Cannon

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Spiritual abusers, including cult leaders, take ev

Spiritual abusers, including cult leaders, take every tactic out of the abuser’s playbook to erode the self-esteem of their victims and make them more vulnerable to exploitation, manipulation and control.

Qult ideology is at an all-time high in the #wellness industry.

Save a friend, spread the word.

#narcissistabuse #spiritualabuse #spiritualawakening #spirituality #lightworkersofinstagram #abuse #psychologicalabuse #cult #cultrecovery #abuserecovery #wellnessthatworks #narcissisticabuse

<img alt="Spiritual abusers, including cult leaders, take every tactic out of the abuser’s playbook to erode the self-esteem of their victims and make them more vulnerable to exploitation, manipulation and control. Qult ideology is at an all-time high in the #wellness industry. Save a friend, spread the word. #narcissistabuse #spiritualabuse #spiritualawakening #spirituality #lightworkersofinstagram #abuse #psychologicalabuse #cult #cultrecovery #abuserecovery #wellnessthatworks #narcissisticabuse" data-recalc-dims="1" data-src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" class="lazyload" src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw=="><noscript><img src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" alt="Spiritual abusers, including cult leaders, take every tactic out of the abuser’s playbook to erode the self-esteem of their victims and make them more vulnerable to exploitation, manipulation and control. Qult ideology is at an all-time high in the #wellness industry. Save a friend, spread the word. #narcissistabuse #spiritualabuse #spiritualawakening #spirituality #lightworkersofinstagram #abuse #psychologicalabuse #cult #cultrecovery #abuserecovery #wellnessthatworks #narcissisticabuse" data-recalc-dims="1">

I lost 40 email subscribers after speaking out abo

I lost 40 email subscribers after speaking out about conspirituality.

(Apparently these people couldn't read between the lines and never realized I was subtly educating them about it all year without saying it directly...)

I also gained 60. Your vibe attracts your tribe. Several of them have thanked me or have told me that they've seen the conspiracy stuff in the spiritual community, felt it was wrong all along, but were very confused and felt alone because they weren't seeing other people, specifically influencers, speaking up.

Your intuition matters, your voice matters, and it does make a difference.

As @susangraceastro would say, trust your thinking and don't fall into false beliefs.

The people who are clinging to an alternate reality are having trouble accepting that it’s over, and they’re drowning in delusion.

If you keep your ear to the ground, you already know that they think their attack on the Capitol was a success and they're planning another around inauguration day (I've seen the 17th and the 19th floating around with specific calls to bring weapons). They're not even trying to hide it.

And the wellness/spiritual community is still, by and large, silent, or worse: on board.

At what point do you wake up and smell the terrorism? And recognize that when you cast your lot with white supremacists and domestic terrorists, neo-nazis, incels, and anti-semites, that you've thrown your spiritual values out the window?

To quote my blog post on wellness influencers...your vibe attracts your tribe. And your tribe is indicative of your vibe.

<img alt="I lost 40 email subscribers after speaking out about conspirituality. (Apparently these people couldn't read between the lines and never realized I was subtly educating them about it all year without saying it directly...) I also gained 60. Your vibe attracts your tribe. Several of them have thanked me or have told me that they've seen the conspiracy stuff in the spiritual community, felt it was wrong all along, but were very confused and felt alone because they weren't seeing other people, specifically influencers, speaking up. Your intuition matters, your voice matters, and it does make a difference. As @susangraceastro would say, trust your thinking and don't fall into false beliefs. The people who are clinging to an alternate reality are having trouble accepting that it’s over, and they’re drowning in delusion. If you keep your ear to the ground, you already know that they think their attack on the Capitol was a success and they're planning another around inauguration day (I've seen the 17th and the 19th floating around with specific calls to bring weapons). They're not even trying to hide it. And the wellness/spiritual community is still, by and large, silent, or worse: on board. At what point do you wake up and smell the terrorism? And recognize that when you cast your lot with white supremacists and domestic terrorists, neo-nazis, incels, and anti-semites, that you've thrown your spiritual values out the window? To quote my blog post on wellness influencers...your vibe attracts your tribe. And your tribe is indicative of your vibe." data-recalc-dims="1" data-src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" class="lazyload" src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw=="><noscript><img src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" alt="I lost 40 email subscribers after speaking out about conspirituality. (Apparently these people couldn't read between the lines and never realized I was subtly educating them about it all year without saying it directly...) I also gained 60. Your vibe attracts your tribe. Several of them have thanked me or have told me that they've seen the conspiracy stuff in the spiritual community, felt it was wrong all along, but were very confused and felt alone because they weren't seeing other people, specifically influencers, speaking up. Your intuition matters, your voice matters, and it does make a difference. As @susangraceastro would say, trust your thinking and don't fall into false beliefs. The people who are clinging to an alternate reality are having trouble accepting that it’s over, and they’re drowning in delusion. If you keep your ear to the ground, you already know that they think their attack on the Capitol was a success and they're planning another around inauguration day (I've seen the 17th and the 19th floating around with specific calls to bring weapons). They're not even trying to hide it. And the wellness/spiritual community is still, by and large, silent, or worse: on board. At what point do you wake up and smell the terrorism? And recognize that when you cast your lot with white supremacists and domestic terrorists, neo-nazis, incels, and anti-semites, that you've thrown your spiritual values out the window? To quote my blog post on wellness influencers...your vibe attracts your tribe. And your tribe is indicative of your vibe." data-recalc-dims="1">

Individualism is a social theory that places heavy

Individualism is a social theory that places heavy emphasis on self worth, self-reliance, individuality, personal freedom, and personal responsibility. It is extremely evident in Western culture, particularly in the United States.

This in and of itself is not a bad thing. It’s healthy for people to have a personal sense of independence rather than being codependent, being self-reliant is a valuable skill to cultivate, and we do all need to have a healthy sense of responsibility for ourselves.

That said, when the values of individualism are taken to an extreme, it becomes toxic just like anything else. Extreme individualism assumes that everyone in the collective is independently responsible for their own circumstances. One’s worth to the collective is often measured by their level of material success and that worth is largely expected to be earned and proven by hard work. In other words, this line of thinking correlates a person’s worth as a human being with their ability to produce goods and amass wealth.

Extreme individualism is antithetical to unity consciousness, because it values one’s self above the collective. It doesn’t view the collective holistically as “one.”

This philosophy shows up in spirituality most often dressed as Law of Attraction, manifestation, and extreme personal empowerment rhetoric:

* You are the absolute creator of your reality

* Energy flows where attention goes / what you pay attention to becomes real

* You are responsible for all of your negative experiences

* Your scarcity mentality is responsible for your financial situation

* No one will love you until you love yourself

* Surround yourself with people who are living the lifestyle you want to have

* You can manifest all of the material wealth and success your heart desires

* Belief in psychic attack, demons, negative entities, and dark forces

Visit the link in my bio for a full breakdown of how these concepts are related to extreme Individualism, embody separation consciousness, and may lead to spiritual bypassing when taken out of the proper context.

<img alt="Individualism is a social theory that places heavy emphasis on self worth, self-reliance, individuality, personal freedom, and personal responsibility. It is extremely evident in Western culture, particularly in the United States. This in and of itself is not a bad thing. It’s healthy for people to have a personal sense of independence rather than being codependent, being self-reliant is a valuable skill to cultivate, and we do all need to have a healthy sense of responsibility for ourselves. That said, when the values of individualism are taken to an extreme, it becomes toxic just like anything else. Extreme individualism assumes that everyone in the collective is independently responsible for their own circumstances. One’s worth to the collective is often measured by their level of material success and that worth is largely expected to be earned and proven by hard work. In other words, this line of thinking correlates a person’s worth as a human being with their ability to produce goods and amass wealth. Extreme individualism is antithetical to unity consciousness, because it values one’s self above the collective. It doesn’t view the collective holistically as “one.” This philosophy shows up in spirituality most often dressed as Law of Attraction, manifestation, and extreme personal empowerment rhetoric: * You are the absolute creator of your reality * Energy flows where attention goes / what you pay attention to becomes real * You are responsible for all of your negative experiences * Your scarcity mentality is responsible for your financial situation * No one will love you until you love yourself * Surround yourself with people who are living the lifestyle you want to have * You can manifest all of the material wealth and success your heart desires * Belief in psychic attack, demons, negative entities, and dark forces Visit the link in my bio for a full breakdown of how these concepts are related to extreme Individualism, embody separation consciousness, and may lead to spiritual bypassing when taken out of the proper context." data-recalc-dims="1" data-src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" class="lazyload" src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw=="><noscript><img src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" alt="Individualism is a social theory that places heavy emphasis on self worth, self-reliance, individuality, personal freedom, and personal responsibility. It is extremely evident in Western culture, particularly in the United States. This in and of itself is not a bad thing. It’s healthy for people to have a personal sense of independence rather than being codependent, being self-reliant is a valuable skill to cultivate, and we do all need to have a healthy sense of responsibility for ourselves. That said, when the values of individualism are taken to an extreme, it becomes toxic just like anything else. Extreme individualism assumes that everyone in the collective is independently responsible for their own circumstances. One’s worth to the collective is often measured by their level of material success and that worth is largely expected to be earned and proven by hard work. In other words, this line of thinking correlates a person’s worth as a human being with their ability to produce goods and amass wealth. Extreme individualism is antithetical to unity consciousness, because it values one’s self above the collective. It doesn’t view the collective holistically as “one.” This philosophy shows up in spirituality most often dressed as Law of Attraction, manifestation, and extreme personal empowerment rhetoric: * You are the absolute creator of your reality * Energy flows where attention goes / what you pay attention to becomes real * You are responsible for all of your negative experiences * Your scarcity mentality is responsible for your financial situation * No one will love you until you love yourself * Surround yourself with people who are living the lifestyle you want to have * You can manifest all of the material wealth and success your heart desires * Belief in psychic attack, demons, negative entities, and dark forces Visit the link in my bio for a full breakdown of how these concepts are related to extreme Individualism, embody separation consciousness, and may lead to spiritual bypassing when taken out of the proper context." data-recalc-dims="1">

There are times in life when it appears as though

There are times in life when it appears as though we are completely enveloped in darkness. All hope seems lost. Our hearts ache. The world as we knew it is crumbling all around us.

In times like these, it’s easy to fall prey to your limited perspective and to feel as though you can’t go on. All you see around you is the darkness. You cannot see what’s on the other side..
#“For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. The shell cracks, its insides come out and everything changes. To someone who doesn’t understand growth, it would look like complete destruction.” – Cynthia Occelli

We have conditioned ourselves to believe that when things begin to fall apart, it’s a bad thing. And because we believe this to be a bad thing, we have begun to fear it. We fear the very thing which allows us to grow.

At some point, the seed must come undone. Its self, as it knows it, must fall apart in order to expand and BECOME. “Only after disaster can we be resurrected. It’s only after you’ve lost everything that you’re free to do anything. Nothing is static, everything is evolving, everything is falling apart.” -Chuck Palahniuk

Embrace your disaster. Surrender to change. Allow the transformation. Accept the pain and grow through it. Because you have to keep breaking your heart until it opens.

The gardener never actually sees the seed sprouting. Usually, you just happen to look one day and there are the little new leaves, standing sturdily above the dirt where a day or two before there was nothing.

The entire world is about to change. If you watch carefully, you’ll see it sprout.

<img alt="There are times in life when it appears as though we are completely enveloped in darkness. All hope seems lost. Our hearts ache. The world as we knew it is crumbling all around us. In times like these, it’s easy to fall prey to your limited perspective and to feel as though you can’t go on. All you see around you is the darkness. You cannot see what’s on the other side.. #“For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. The shell cracks, its insides come out and everything changes. To someone who doesn’t understand growth, it would look like complete destruction.” – Cynthia Occelli We have conditioned ourselves to believe that when things begin to fall apart, it’s a bad thing. And because we believe this to be a bad thing, we have begun to fear it. We fear the very thing which allows us to grow. At some point, the seed must come undone. Its self, as it knows it, must fall apart in order to expand and BECOME. “Only after disaster can we be resurrected. It’s only after you’ve lost everything that you’re free to do anything. Nothing is static, everything is evolving, everything is falling apart.” -Chuck Palahniuk Embrace your disaster. Surrender to change. Allow the transformation. Accept the pain and grow through it. Because you have to keep breaking your heart until it opens. The gardener never actually sees the seed sprouting. Usually, you just happen to look one day and there are the little new leaves, standing sturdily above the dirt where a day or two before there was nothing. The entire world is about to change. If you watch carefully, you’ll see it sprout." data-recalc-dims="1" data-src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" class="lazyload" src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw=="><noscript><img src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" alt="There are times in life when it appears as though we are completely enveloped in darkness. All hope seems lost. Our hearts ache. The world as we knew it is crumbling all around us. In times like these, it’s easy to fall prey to your limited perspective and to feel as though you can’t go on. All you see around you is the darkness. You cannot see what’s on the other side.. #“For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. The shell cracks, its insides come out and everything changes. To someone who doesn’t understand growth, it would look like complete destruction.” – Cynthia Occelli We have conditioned ourselves to believe that when things begin to fall apart, it’s a bad thing. And because we believe this to be a bad thing, we have begun to fear it. We fear the very thing which allows us to grow. At some point, the seed must come undone. Its self, as it knows it, must fall apart in order to expand and BECOME. “Only after disaster can we be resurrected. It’s only after you’ve lost everything that you’re free to do anything. Nothing is static, everything is evolving, everything is falling apart.” -Chuck Palahniuk Embrace your disaster. Surrender to change. Allow the transformation. Accept the pain and grow through it. Because you have to keep breaking your heart until it opens. The gardener never actually sees the seed sprouting. Usually, you just happen to look one day and there are the little new leaves, standing sturdily above the dirt where a day or two before there was nothing. The entire world is about to change. If you watch carefully, you’ll see it sprout." data-recalc-dims="1">

6/12/2018 I’ve spent a great deal of my life fe

6/12/2018

I’ve spent a great deal of my life feeling unlovable. I’m not really sure when it began, but I know that in my attempts to compensate for that feeling, I strived to make myself perfect in the eyes of those I desperately wanted to love me.
 But no matter how perfect I became, it was never enough. Relationships still failed. People still disappeared, and I was left wondering what was wrong with me. I’ve never been one to blame others, so I blamed myself instead.

I blamed myself. I hated myself. In my constant search for perfection, I lost myself. I also developed some incredibly self-destructive habits. To compensate for the feeling of being starved for affection, I starved myself.
 The thing I finally came to realize was that it was never me. I was never unlovable. I just fell in love with other people who also believed they were unlovable. And in our mutual brokenness, we continued to break one another.
 As tragic as it sounds, I am grateful for it. It taught me how to love—how to love others and how to love myself. It showed me that true perfection lies not in the unattainable standard put forth by the world, but in our own individuality. Our perfection exists within our vulnerability. Our beauty lies in our ability to love ourselves and each other whole.

<img alt="6/12/2018 I’ve spent a great deal of my life feeling unlovable. I’m not really sure when it began, but I know that in my attempts to compensate for that feeling, I strived to make myself perfect in the eyes of those I desperately wanted to love me.  But no matter how perfect I became, it was never enough. Relationships still failed. People still disappeared, and I was left wondering what was wrong with me. I’ve never been one to blame others, so I blamed myself instead. I blamed myself. I hated myself. In my constant search for perfection, I lost myself. I also developed some incredibly self-destructive habits. To compensate for the feeling of being starved for affection, I starved myself.  The thing I finally came to realize was that it was never me. I was never unlovable. I just fell in love with other people who also believed they were unlovable. And in our mutual brokenness, we continued to break one another.  As tragic as it sounds, I am grateful for it. It taught me how to love—how to love others and how to love myself. It showed me that true perfection lies not in the unattainable standard put forth by the world, but in our own individuality. Our perfection exists within our vulnerability. Our beauty lies in our ability to love ourselves and each other whole." data-recalc-dims="1" data-src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" class="lazyload" src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw=="><noscript><img src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" alt="6/12/2018 I’ve spent a great deal of my life feeling unlovable. I’m not really sure when it began, but I know that in my attempts to compensate for that feeling, I strived to make myself perfect in the eyes of those I desperately wanted to love me.  But no matter how perfect I became, it was never enough. Relationships still failed. People still disappeared, and I was left wondering what was wrong with me. I’ve never been one to blame others, so I blamed myself instead. I blamed myself. I hated myself. In my constant search for perfection, I lost myself. I also developed some incredibly self-destructive habits. To compensate for the feeling of being starved for affection, I starved myself.  The thing I finally came to realize was that it was never me. I was never unlovable. I just fell in love with other people who also believed they were unlovable. And in our mutual brokenness, we continued to break one another.  As tragic as it sounds, I am grateful for it. It taught me how to love—how to love others and how to love myself. It showed me that true perfection lies not in the unattainable standard put forth by the world, but in our own individuality. Our perfection exists within our vulnerability. Our beauty lies in our ability to love ourselves and each other whole." data-recalc-dims="1">

I've heard a lot of rumbling in the spiritual comm

I've heard a lot of rumbling in the spiritual community that what is happening right now is a conspiracy by the government to create a race war so that martial law can be enacted, with warnings to not fall into "the trap." LET ME BE CLEAR – A race war was already happening. It's been happening since 1619 when the first people in Africa were captured, put on boats, sent to the Americas and sold like cattle.

I'll put it in the terms conspiracy theorists like to use so that it can be better understood:

Racism became a covert undercover operation (also known as institutionalized racism) after the civil war as a way to keep black people enslaved while giving the illusion of freedom to anyone on the outside looking in.

It became a psy-ops program (also known as white privilege) after the civil rights movement when they convinced white people that they were no loner considered racist because they legally recognized black people as equal (even though the people enforcing the laws were still undercover agents of racism). They spent 40 years brainwashing you into believing that because you had black friends, didn't use the N-word, never burned a cross, and didn't hang a black woman or man, that it meant you didn't have racist beliefs or attitudes. They used cop movies and television shows and daily TV news to brainwash you into believing that black people were criminals and an inherent danger to your suburban safety and that the police are here to rescue you from them.

They used your high school history books to make you believe that slavery was a long time ago, and the civil rights movement meant that black people were equals and racism no longer existed (suddenly, magically, as though erasing 400 years of generational trauma racist tyranny could just disappear with the stroke of a pen). The fact that you haven't recognized those subliminal messages (otherwise known as YOUR SOCIETAL CULTURE) or been able to see what's been happening right in front of you means that your mind is being controlled. (Continued in comments 👇🏻)

<img alt="I've heard a lot of rumbling in the spiritual community that what is happening right now is a conspiracy by the government to create a race war so that martial law can be enacted, with warnings to not fall into "the trap." LET ME BE CLEAR – A race war was already happening. It's been happening since 1619 when the first people in Africa were captured, put on boats, sent to the Americas and sold like cattle. I'll put it in the terms conspiracy theorists like to use so that it can be better understood: Racism became a covert undercover operation (also known as institutionalized racism) after the civil war as a way to keep black people enslaved while giving the illusion of freedom to anyone on the outside looking in. It became a psy-ops program (also known as white privilege) after the civil rights movement when they convinced white people that they were no loner considered racist because they legally recognized black people as equal (even though the people enforcing the laws were still undercover agents of racism). They spent 40 years brainwashing you into believing that because you had black friends, didn't use the N-word, never burned a cross, and didn't hang a black woman or man, that it meant you didn't have racist beliefs or attitudes. They used cop movies and television shows and daily TV news to brainwash you into believing that black people were criminals and an inherent danger to your suburban safety and that the police are here to rescue you from them. They used your high school history books to make you believe that slavery was a long time ago, and the civil rights movement meant that black people were equals and racism no longer existed (suddenly, magically, as though erasing 400 years of generational trauma racist tyranny could just disappear with the stroke of a pen). The fact that you haven't recognized those subliminal messages (otherwise known as YOUR SOCIETAL CULTURE) or been able to see what's been happening right in front of you means that your mind is being controlled. (Continued in comments 👇🏻)" data-recalc-dims="1" data-src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" class="lazyload" src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw=="><noscript><img src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" alt="I've heard a lot of rumbling in the spiritual community that what is happening right now is a conspiracy by the government to create a race war so that martial law can be enacted, with warnings to not fall into "the trap." LET ME BE CLEAR – A race war was already happening. It's been happening since 1619 when the first people in Africa were captured, put on boats, sent to the Americas and sold like cattle. I'll put it in the terms conspiracy theorists like to use so that it can be better understood: Racism became a covert undercover operation (also known as institutionalized racism) after the civil war as a way to keep black people enslaved while giving the illusion of freedom to anyone on the outside looking in. It became a psy-ops program (also known as white privilege) after the civil rights movement when they convinced white people that they were no loner considered racist because they legally recognized black people as equal (even though the people enforcing the laws were still undercover agents of racism). They spent 40 years brainwashing you into believing that because you had black friends, didn't use the N-word, never burned a cross, and didn't hang a black woman or man, that it meant you didn't have racist beliefs or attitudes. They used cop movies and television shows and daily TV news to brainwash you into believing that black people were criminals and an inherent danger to your suburban safety and that the police are here to rescue you from them. They used your high school history books to make you believe that slavery was a long time ago, and the civil rights movement meant that black people were equals and racism no longer existed (suddenly, magically, as though erasing 400 years of generational trauma racist tyranny could just disappear with the stroke of a pen). The fact that you haven't recognized those subliminal messages (otherwise known as YOUR SOCIETAL CULTURE) or been able to see what's been happening right in front of you means that your mind is being controlled. (Continued in comments 👇🏻)" data-recalc-dims="1">

I don’t often feel safe. Having my apartment bu

I don’t often feel safe.

Having my apartment burglarized two days ago has brought that fact starkly into my awareness. My home was my shelter, the one place could feel protected. And now that sacred space has been violated, like every other physical boundary I have.

I think not feeling safe comes from never having truly felt protected. By anyone. I’ve been fending for myself for as long as I can remember.

There are so many times when I just want to be held. To cry in someone’s arms and feel completely safe doing it—but I don’t have that luxury.

I caught myself this morning, as I’m processing this latest desecration of my personal space, wondering how to “fix” my “need” of another person.

A misunderstanding of over-simplified spiritual platitudes can lead us to believe that we should never need another person. Especially people like me, who have felt too needy their whole lives and have tried to fix that needy feeling by cutting themselves off from others.

The truth is that human beings are social creatures. We’ve evolved to thrive in community. Close personal bonds are nourishing. And it’s often a lack of closeness and emotional or physical neglect that creates feelings of neediness or feeling as though your own basic emotional needs are too much.

It’s exhausting having to fend for yourself all the time. It was probably exhausting to feel that way as a child. It’s exhausting now. I find myself keeping a constant eye on my surroundings as I walk home from work. I make sure that no one is watching which building I’m going into when I get there. And it doesn’t even matter, because someone came through my window. That someone went through my personal belongings. That someone was IN MY BED where I sleep every night.

It isn’t feasible for me to have to deal with this alone. After 36 years, I’m still trying to allow myself to accept that I have needs, and to convince myself that it’s ok to not want to be alone, especially when things like this happen.

I’m trying to remind myself that basic needs aren’t something to be fixed. There’s nothing wrong with wanting connection or to feel protected, and the very nature of feeling protected requires an other.

<img alt="I don’t often feel safe. Having my apartment burglarized two days ago has brought that fact starkly into my awareness. My home was my shelter, the one place could feel protected. And now that sacred space has been violated, like every other physical boundary I have. I think not feeling safe comes from never having truly felt protected. By anyone. I’ve been fending for myself for as long as I can remember. There are so many times when I just want to be held. To cry in someone’s arms and feel completely safe doing it—but I don’t have that luxury. I caught myself this morning, as I’m processing this latest desecration of my personal space, wondering how to “fix” my “need” of another person. A misunderstanding of over-simplified spiritual platitudes can lead us to believe that we should never need another person. Especially people like me, who have felt too needy their whole lives and have tried to fix that needy feeling by cutting themselves off from others. The truth is that human beings are social creatures. We’ve evolved to thrive in community. Close personal bonds are nourishing. And it’s often a lack of closeness and emotional or physical neglect that creates feelings of neediness or feeling as though your own basic emotional needs are too much. It’s exhausting having to fend for yourself all the time. It was probably exhausting to feel that way as a child. It’s exhausting now. I find myself keeping a constant eye on my surroundings as I walk home from work. I make sure that no one is watching which building I’m going into when I get there. And it doesn’t even matter, because someone came through my window. That someone went through my personal belongings. That someone was IN MY BED where I sleep every night. It isn’t feasible for me to have to deal with this alone. After 36 years, I’m still trying to allow myself to accept that I have needs, and to convince myself that it’s ok to not want to be alone, especially when things like this happen. I’m trying to remind myself that basic needs aren’t something to be fixed. There’s nothing wrong with wanting connection or to feel protected, and the very nature of feeling protected requires an other." data-recalc-dims="1" data-src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" class="lazyload" src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw=="><noscript><img src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" alt="I don’t often feel safe. Having my apartment burglarized two days ago has brought that fact starkly into my awareness. My home was my shelter, the one place could feel protected. And now that sacred space has been violated, like every other physical boundary I have. I think not feeling safe comes from never having truly felt protected. By anyone. I’ve been fending for myself for as long as I can remember. There are so many times when I just want to be held. To cry in someone’s arms and feel completely safe doing it—but I don’t have that luxury. I caught myself this morning, as I’m processing this latest desecration of my personal space, wondering how to “fix” my “need” of another person. A misunderstanding of over-simplified spiritual platitudes can lead us to believe that we should never need another person. Especially people like me, who have felt too needy their whole lives and have tried to fix that needy feeling by cutting themselves off from others. The truth is that human beings are social creatures. We’ve evolved to thrive in community. Close personal bonds are nourishing. And it’s often a lack of closeness and emotional or physical neglect that creates feelings of neediness or feeling as though your own basic emotional needs are too much. It’s exhausting having to fend for yourself all the time. It was probably exhausting to feel that way as a child. It’s exhausting now. I find myself keeping a constant eye on my surroundings as I walk home from work. I make sure that no one is watching which building I’m going into when I get there. And it doesn’t even matter, because someone came through my window. That someone went through my personal belongings. That someone was IN MY BED where I sleep every night. It isn’t feasible for me to have to deal with this alone. After 36 years, I’m still trying to allow myself to accept that I have needs, and to convince myself that it’s ok to not want to be alone, especially when things like this happen. I’m trying to remind myself that basic needs aren’t something to be fixed. There’s nothing wrong with wanting connection or to feel protected, and the very nature of feeling protected requires an other." data-recalc-dims="1">

Spiritual abusers, including cult leaders, take ev

Spiritual abusers, including cult leaders, take every tactic out of the abuser’s playbook to erode the self-esteem of their victims and make them more vulnerable to exploitation, manipulation and control.

Qult ideology is at an all-time high in the #wellness industry.

Save a friend, spread the word.

#narcissistabuse #spiritualabuse #spiritualawakening #spirituality #lightworkersofinstagram #abuse #psychologicalabuse #cult #cultrecovery #abuserecovery #wellnessthatworks #narcissisticabuse

<img alt="Spiritual abusers, including cult leaders, take every tactic out of the abuser’s playbook to erode the self-esteem of their victims and make them more vulnerable to exploitation, manipulation and control. Qult ideology is at an all-time high in the #wellness industry. Save a friend, spread the word. #narcissistabuse #spiritualabuse #spiritualawakening #spirituality #lightworkersofinstagram #abuse #psychologicalabuse #cult #cultrecovery #abuserecovery #wellnessthatworks #narcissisticabuse" data-recalc-dims="1" data-src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" class="lazyload" src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw=="><noscript><img src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" alt="Spiritual abusers, including cult leaders, take every tactic out of the abuser’s playbook to erode the self-esteem of their victims and make them more vulnerable to exploitation, manipulation and control. Qult ideology is at an all-time high in the #wellness industry. Save a friend, spread the word. #narcissistabuse #spiritualabuse #spiritualawakening #spirituality #lightworkersofinstagram #abuse #psychologicalabuse #cult #cultrecovery #abuserecovery #wellnessthatworks #narcissisticabuse" data-recalc-dims="1">

I lost 40 email subscribers after speaking out abo

I lost 40 email subscribers after speaking out about conspirituality.

(Apparently these people couldn't read between the lines and never realized I was subtly educating them about it all year without saying it directly...)

I also gained 60. Your vibe attracts your tribe. Several of them have thanked me or have told me that they've seen the conspiracy stuff in the spiritual community, felt it was wrong all along, but were very confused and felt alone because they weren't seeing other people, specifically influencers, speaking up.

Your intuition matters, your voice matters, and it does make a difference.

As @susangraceastro would say, trust your thinking and don't fall into false beliefs.

The people who are clinging to an alternate reality are having trouble accepting that it’s over, and they’re drowning in delusion.

If you keep your ear to the ground, you already know that they think their attack on the Capitol was a success and they're planning another around inauguration day (I've seen the 17th and the 19th floating around with specific calls to bring weapons). They're not even trying to hide it.

And the wellness/spiritual community is still, by and large, silent, or worse: on board.

At what point do you wake up and smell the terrorism? And recognize that when you cast your lot with white supremacists and domestic terrorists, neo-nazis, incels, and anti-semites, that you've thrown your spiritual values out the window?

To quote my blog post on wellness influencers...your vibe attracts your tribe. And your tribe is indicative of your vibe.

<img alt="I lost 40 email subscribers after speaking out about conspirituality. (Apparently these people couldn't read between the lines and never realized I was subtly educating them about it all year without saying it directly...) I also gained 60. Your vibe attracts your tribe. Several of them have thanked me or have told me that they've seen the conspiracy stuff in the spiritual community, felt it was wrong all along, but were very confused and felt alone because they weren't seeing other people, specifically influencers, speaking up. Your intuition matters, your voice matters, and it does make a difference. As @susangraceastro would say, trust your thinking and don't fall into false beliefs. The people who are clinging to an alternate reality are having trouble accepting that it’s over, and they’re drowning in delusion. If you keep your ear to the ground, you already know that they think their attack on the Capitol was a success and they're planning another around inauguration day (I've seen the 17th and the 19th floating around with specific calls to bring weapons). They're not even trying to hide it. And the wellness/spiritual community is still, by and large, silent, or worse: on board. At what point do you wake up and smell the terrorism? And recognize that when you cast your lot with white supremacists and domestic terrorists, neo-nazis, incels, and anti-semites, that you've thrown your spiritual values out the window? To quote my blog post on wellness influencers...your vibe attracts your tribe. And your tribe is indicative of your vibe." data-recalc-dims="1" data-src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" class="lazyload" src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw=="><noscript><img src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" alt="I lost 40 email subscribers after speaking out about conspirituality. (Apparently these people couldn't read between the lines and never realized I was subtly educating them about it all year without saying it directly...) I also gained 60. Your vibe attracts your tribe. Several of them have thanked me or have told me that they've seen the conspiracy stuff in the spiritual community, felt it was wrong all along, but were very confused and felt alone because they weren't seeing other people, specifically influencers, speaking up. Your intuition matters, your voice matters, and it does make a difference. As @susangraceastro would say, trust your thinking and don't fall into false beliefs. The people who are clinging to an alternate reality are having trouble accepting that it’s over, and they’re drowning in delusion. If you keep your ear to the ground, you already know that they think their attack on the Capitol was a success and they're planning another around inauguration day (I've seen the 17th and the 19th floating around with specific calls to bring weapons). They're not even trying to hide it. And the wellness/spiritual community is still, by and large, silent, or worse: on board. At what point do you wake up and smell the terrorism? And recognize that when you cast your lot with white supremacists and domestic terrorists, neo-nazis, incels, and anti-semites, that you've thrown your spiritual values out the window? To quote my blog post on wellness influencers...your vibe attracts your tribe. And your tribe is indicative of your vibe." data-recalc-dims="1">

Individualism is a social theory that places heavy

Individualism is a social theory that places heavy emphasis on self worth, self-reliance, individuality, personal freedom, and personal responsibility. It is extremely evident in Western culture, particularly in the United States.

This in and of itself is not a bad thing. It’s healthy for people to have a personal sense of independence rather than being codependent, being self-reliant is a valuable skill to cultivate, and we do all need to have a healthy sense of responsibility for ourselves.

That said, when the values of individualism are taken to an extreme, it becomes toxic just like anything else. Extreme individualism assumes that everyone in the collective is independently responsible for their own circumstances. One’s worth to the collective is often measured by their level of material success and that worth is largely expected to be earned and proven by hard work. In other words, this line of thinking correlates a person’s worth as a human being with their ability to produce goods and amass wealth.

Extreme individualism is antithetical to unity consciousness, because it values one’s self above the collective. It doesn’t view the collective holistically as “one.”

This philosophy shows up in spirituality most often dressed as Law of Attraction, manifestation, and extreme personal empowerment rhetoric:

* You are the absolute creator of your reality

* Energy flows where attention goes / what you pay attention to becomes real

* You are responsible for all of your negative experiences

* Your scarcity mentality is responsible for your financial situation

* No one will love you until you love yourself

* Surround yourself with people who are living the lifestyle you want to have

* You can manifest all of the material wealth and success your heart desires

* Belief in psychic attack, demons, negative entities, and dark forces

Visit the link in my bio for a full breakdown of how these concepts are related to extreme Individualism, embody separation consciousness, and may lead to spiritual bypassing when taken out of the proper context.

<img alt="Individualism is a social theory that places heavy emphasis on self worth, self-reliance, individuality, personal freedom, and personal responsibility. It is extremely evident in Western culture, particularly in the United States. This in and of itself is not a bad thing. It’s healthy for people to have a personal sense of independence rather than being codependent, being self-reliant is a valuable skill to cultivate, and we do all need to have a healthy sense of responsibility for ourselves. That said, when the values of individualism are taken to an extreme, it becomes toxic just like anything else. Extreme individualism assumes that everyone in the collective is independently responsible for their own circumstances. One’s worth to the collective is often measured by their level of material success and that worth is largely expected to be earned and proven by hard work. In other words, this line of thinking correlates a person’s worth as a human being with their ability to produce goods and amass wealth. Extreme individualism is antithetical to unity consciousness, because it values one’s self above the collective. It doesn’t view the collective holistically as “one.” This philosophy shows up in spirituality most often dressed as Law of Attraction, manifestation, and extreme personal empowerment rhetoric: * You are the absolute creator of your reality * Energy flows where attention goes / what you pay attention to becomes real * You are responsible for all of your negative experiences * Your scarcity mentality is responsible for your financial situation * No one will love you until you love yourself * Surround yourself with people who are living the lifestyle you want to have * You can manifest all of the material wealth and success your heart desires * Belief in psychic attack, demons, negative entities, and dark forces Visit the link in my bio for a full breakdown of how these concepts are related to extreme Individualism, embody separation consciousness, and may lead to spiritual bypassing when taken out of the proper context." data-recalc-dims="1" data-src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" class="lazyload" src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw=="><noscript><img src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" alt="Individualism is a social theory that places heavy emphasis on self worth, self-reliance, individuality, personal freedom, and personal responsibility. It is extremely evident in Western culture, particularly in the United States. This in and of itself is not a bad thing. It’s healthy for people to have a personal sense of independence rather than being codependent, being self-reliant is a valuable skill to cultivate, and we do all need to have a healthy sense of responsibility for ourselves. That said, when the values of individualism are taken to an extreme, it becomes toxic just like anything else. Extreme individualism assumes that everyone in the collective is independently responsible for their own circumstances. One’s worth to the collective is often measured by their level of material success and that worth is largely expected to be earned and proven by hard work. In other words, this line of thinking correlates a person’s worth as a human being with their ability to produce goods and amass wealth. Extreme individualism is antithetical to unity consciousness, because it values one’s self above the collective. It doesn’t view the collective holistically as “one.” This philosophy shows up in spirituality most often dressed as Law of Attraction, manifestation, and extreme personal empowerment rhetoric: * You are the absolute creator of your reality * Energy flows where attention goes / what you pay attention to becomes real * You are responsible for all of your negative experiences * Your scarcity mentality is responsible for your financial situation * No one will love you until you love yourself * Surround yourself with people who are living the lifestyle you want to have * You can manifest all of the material wealth and success your heart desires * Belief in psychic attack, demons, negative entities, and dark forces Visit the link in my bio for a full breakdown of how these concepts are related to extreme Individualism, embody separation consciousness, and may lead to spiritual bypassing when taken out of the proper context." data-recalc-dims="1">

There are times in life when it appears as though

There are times in life when it appears as though we are completely enveloped in darkness. All hope seems lost. Our hearts ache. The world as we knew it is crumbling all around us.

In times like these, it’s easy to fall prey to your limited perspective and to feel as though you can’t go on. All you see around you is the darkness. You cannot see what’s on the other side..
#“For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. The shell cracks, its insides come out and everything changes. To someone who doesn’t understand growth, it would look like complete destruction.” – Cynthia Occelli

We have conditioned ourselves to believe that when things begin to fall apart, it’s a bad thing. And because we believe this to be a bad thing, we have begun to fear it. We fear the very thing which allows us to grow.

At some point, the seed must come undone. Its self, as it knows it, must fall apart in order to expand and BECOME. “Only after disaster can we be resurrected. It’s only after you’ve lost everything that you’re free to do anything. Nothing is static, everything is evolving, everything is falling apart.” -Chuck Palahniuk

Embrace your disaster. Surrender to change. Allow the transformation. Accept the pain and grow through it. Because you have to keep breaking your heart until it opens.

The gardener never actually sees the seed sprouting. Usually, you just happen to look one day and there are the little new leaves, standing sturdily above the dirt where a day or two before there was nothing.

The entire world is about to change. If you watch carefully, you’ll see it sprout.

<img alt="There are times in life when it appears as though we are completely enveloped in darkness. All hope seems lost. Our hearts ache. The world as we knew it is crumbling all around us. In times like these, it’s easy to fall prey to your limited perspective and to feel as though you can’t go on. All you see around you is the darkness. You cannot see what’s on the other side.. #“For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. The shell cracks, its insides come out and everything changes. To someone who doesn’t understand growth, it would look like complete destruction.” – Cynthia Occelli We have conditioned ourselves to believe that when things begin to fall apart, it’s a bad thing. And because we believe this to be a bad thing, we have begun to fear it. We fear the very thing which allows us to grow. At some point, the seed must come undone. Its self, as it knows it, must fall apart in order to expand and BECOME. “Only after disaster can we be resurrected. It’s only after you’ve lost everything that you’re free to do anything. Nothing is static, everything is evolving, everything is falling apart.” -Chuck Palahniuk Embrace your disaster. Surrender to change. Allow the transformation. Accept the pain and grow through it. Because you have to keep breaking your heart until it opens. The gardener never actually sees the seed sprouting. Usually, you just happen to look one day and there are the little new leaves, standing sturdily above the dirt where a day or two before there was nothing. The entire world is about to change. If you watch carefully, you’ll see it sprout." data-recalc-dims="1" data-src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" class="lazyload" src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw=="><noscript><img src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" alt="There are times in life when it appears as though we are completely enveloped in darkness. All hope seems lost. Our hearts ache. The world as we knew it is crumbling all around us. In times like these, it’s easy to fall prey to your limited perspective and to feel as though you can’t go on. All you see around you is the darkness. You cannot see what’s on the other side.. #“For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. The shell cracks, its insides come out and everything changes. To someone who doesn’t understand growth, it would look like complete destruction.” – Cynthia Occelli We have conditioned ourselves to believe that when things begin to fall apart, it’s a bad thing. And because we believe this to be a bad thing, we have begun to fear it. We fear the very thing which allows us to grow. At some point, the seed must come undone. Its self, as it knows it, must fall apart in order to expand and BECOME. “Only after disaster can we be resurrected. It’s only after you’ve lost everything that you’re free to do anything. Nothing is static, everything is evolving, everything is falling apart.” -Chuck Palahniuk Embrace your disaster. Surrender to change. Allow the transformation. Accept the pain and grow through it. Because you have to keep breaking your heart until it opens. The gardener never actually sees the seed sprouting. Usually, you just happen to look one day and there are the little new leaves, standing sturdily above the dirt where a day or two before there was nothing. The entire world is about to change. If you watch carefully, you’ll see it sprout." data-recalc-dims="1">

6/12/2018 I’ve spent a great deal of my life fe

6/12/2018

I’ve spent a great deal of my life feeling unlovable. I’m not really sure when it began, but I know that in my attempts to compensate for that feeling, I strived to make myself perfect in the eyes of those I desperately wanted to love me.
 But no matter how perfect I became, it was never enough. Relationships still failed. People still disappeared, and I was left wondering what was wrong with me. I’ve never been one to blame others, so I blamed myself instead.

I blamed myself. I hated myself. In my constant search for perfection, I lost myself. I also developed some incredibly self-destructive habits. To compensate for the feeling of being starved for affection, I starved myself.
 The thing I finally came to realize was that it was never me. I was never unlovable. I just fell in love with other people who also believed they were unlovable. And in our mutual brokenness, we continued to break one another.
 As tragic as it sounds, I am grateful for it. It taught me how to love—how to love others and how to love myself. It showed me that true perfection lies not in the unattainable standard put forth by the world, but in our own individuality. Our perfection exists within our vulnerability. Our beauty lies in our ability to love ourselves and each other whole.

<img alt="6/12/2018 I’ve spent a great deal of my life feeling unlovable. I’m not really sure when it began, but I know that in my attempts to compensate for that feeling, I strived to make myself perfect in the eyes of those I desperately wanted to love me.  But no matter how perfect I became, it was never enough. Relationships still failed. People still disappeared, and I was left wondering what was wrong with me. I’ve never been one to blame others, so I blamed myself instead. I blamed myself. I hated myself. In my constant search for perfection, I lost myself. I also developed some incredibly self-destructive habits. To compensate for the feeling of being starved for affection, I starved myself.  The thing I finally came to realize was that it was never me. I was never unlovable. I just fell in love with other people who also believed they were unlovable. And in our mutual brokenness, we continued to break one another.  As tragic as it sounds, I am grateful for it. It taught me how to love—how to love others and how to love myself. It showed me that true perfection lies not in the unattainable standard put forth by the world, but in our own individuality. Our perfection exists within our vulnerability. Our beauty lies in our ability to love ourselves and each other whole." data-recalc-dims="1" data-src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" class="lazyload" src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw=="><noscript><img src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" alt="6/12/2018 I’ve spent a great deal of my life feeling unlovable. I’m not really sure when it began, but I know that in my attempts to compensate for that feeling, I strived to make myself perfect in the eyes of those I desperately wanted to love me.  But no matter how perfect I became, it was never enough. Relationships still failed. People still disappeared, and I was left wondering what was wrong with me. I’ve never been one to blame others, so I blamed myself instead. I blamed myself. I hated myself. In my constant search for perfection, I lost myself. I also developed some incredibly self-destructive habits. To compensate for the feeling of being starved for affection, I starved myself.  The thing I finally came to realize was that it was never me. I was never unlovable. I just fell in love with other people who also believed they were unlovable. And in our mutual brokenness, we continued to break one another.  As tragic as it sounds, I am grateful for it. It taught me how to love—how to love others and how to love myself. It showed me that true perfection lies not in the unattainable standard put forth by the world, but in our own individuality. Our perfection exists within our vulnerability. Our beauty lies in our ability to love ourselves and each other whole." data-recalc-dims="1">

I've heard a lot of rumbling in the spiritual comm

I've heard a lot of rumbling in the spiritual community that what is happening right now is a conspiracy by the government to create a race war so that martial law can be enacted, with warnings to not fall into "the trap." LET ME BE CLEAR – A race war was already happening. It's been happening since 1619 when the first people in Africa were captured, put on boats, sent to the Americas and sold like cattle.

I'll put it in the terms conspiracy theorists like to use so that it can be better understood:

Racism became a covert undercover operation (also known as institutionalized racism) after the civil war as a way to keep black people enslaved while giving the illusion of freedom to anyone on the outside looking in.

It became a psy-ops program (also known as white privilege) after the civil rights movement when they convinced white people that they were no loner considered racist because they legally recognized black people as equal (even though the people enforcing the laws were still undercover agents of racism). They spent 40 years brainwashing you into believing that because you had black friends, didn't use the N-word, never burned a cross, and didn't hang a black woman or man, that it meant you didn't have racist beliefs or attitudes. They used cop movies and television shows and daily TV news to brainwash you into believing that black people were criminals and an inherent danger to your suburban safety and that the police are here to rescue you from them.

They used your high school history books to make you believe that slavery was a long time ago, and the civil rights movement meant that black people were equals and racism no longer existed (suddenly, magically, as though erasing 400 years of generational trauma racist tyranny could just disappear with the stroke of a pen). The fact that you haven't recognized those subliminal messages (otherwise known as YOUR SOCIETAL CULTURE) or been able to see what's been happening right in front of you means that your mind is being controlled. (Continued in comments 👇🏻)

<img alt="I've heard a lot of rumbling in the spiritual community that what is happening right now is a conspiracy by the government to create a race war so that martial law can be enacted, with warnings to not fall into "the trap." LET ME BE CLEAR – A race war was already happening. It's been happening since 1619 when the first people in Africa were captured, put on boats, sent to the Americas and sold like cattle. I'll put it in the terms conspiracy theorists like to use so that it can be better understood: Racism became a covert undercover operation (also known as institutionalized racism) after the civil war as a way to keep black people enslaved while giving the illusion of freedom to anyone on the outside looking in. It became a psy-ops program (also known as white privilege) after the civil rights movement when they convinced white people that they were no loner considered racist because they legally recognized black people as equal (even though the people enforcing the laws were still undercover agents of racism). They spent 40 years brainwashing you into believing that because you had black friends, didn't use the N-word, never burned a cross, and didn't hang a black woman or man, that it meant you didn't have racist beliefs or attitudes. They used cop movies and television shows and daily TV news to brainwash you into believing that black people were criminals and an inherent danger to your suburban safety and that the police are here to rescue you from them. They used your high school history books to make you believe that slavery was a long time ago, and the civil rights movement meant that black people were equals and racism no longer existed (suddenly, magically, as though erasing 400 years of generational trauma racist tyranny could just disappear with the stroke of a pen). The fact that you haven't recognized those subliminal messages (otherwise known as YOUR SOCIETAL CULTURE) or been able to see what's been happening right in front of you means that your mind is being controlled. (Continued in comments 👇🏻)" data-recalc-dims="1" data-src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" class="lazyload" src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw=="><noscript><img src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" alt="I've heard a lot of rumbling in the spiritual community that what is happening right now is a conspiracy by the government to create a race war so that martial law can be enacted, with warnings to not fall into "the trap." LET ME BE CLEAR – A race war was already happening. It's been happening since 1619 when the first people in Africa were captured, put on boats, sent to the Americas and sold like cattle. I'll put it in the terms conspiracy theorists like to use so that it can be better understood: Racism became a covert undercover operation (also known as institutionalized racism) after the civil war as a way to keep black people enslaved while giving the illusion of freedom to anyone on the outside looking in. It became a psy-ops program (also known as white privilege) after the civil rights movement when they convinced white people that they were no loner considered racist because they legally recognized black people as equal (even though the people enforcing the laws were still undercover agents of racism). They spent 40 years brainwashing you into believing that because you had black friends, didn't use the N-word, never burned a cross, and didn't hang a black woman or man, that it meant you didn't have racist beliefs or attitudes. They used cop movies and television shows and daily TV news to brainwash you into believing that black people were criminals and an inherent danger to your suburban safety and that the police are here to rescue you from them. They used your high school history books to make you believe that slavery was a long time ago, and the civil rights movement meant that black people were equals and racism no longer existed (suddenly, magically, as though erasing 400 years of generational trauma racist tyranny could just disappear with the stroke of a pen). The fact that you haven't recognized those subliminal messages (otherwise known as YOUR SOCIETAL CULTURE) or been able to see what's been happening right in front of you means that your mind is being controlled. (Continued in comments 👇🏻)" data-recalc-dims="1">

I don’t often feel safe. Having my apartment bu

I don’t often feel safe.

Having my apartment burglarized two days ago has brought that fact starkly into my awareness. My home was my shelter, the one place could feel protected. And now that sacred space has been violated, like every other physical boundary I have.

I think not feeling safe comes from never having truly felt protected. By anyone. I’ve been fending for myself for as long as I can remember.

There are so many times when I just want to be held. To cry in someone’s arms and feel completely safe doing it—but I don’t have that luxury.

I caught myself this morning, as I’m processing this latest desecration of my personal space, wondering how to “fix” my “need” of another person.

A misunderstanding of over-simplified spiritual platitudes can lead us to believe that we should never need another person. Especially people like me, who have felt too needy their whole lives and have tried to fix that needy feeling by cutting themselves off from others.

The truth is that human beings are social creatures. We’ve evolved to thrive in community. Close personal bonds are nourishing. And it’s often a lack of closeness and emotional or physical neglect that creates feelings of neediness or feeling as though your own basic emotional needs are too much.

It’s exhausting having to fend for yourself all the time. It was probably exhausting to feel that way as a child. It’s exhausting now. I find myself keeping a constant eye on my surroundings as I walk home from work. I make sure that no one is watching which building I’m going into when I get there. And it doesn’t even matter, because someone came through my window. That someone went through my personal belongings. That someone was IN MY BED where I sleep every night.

It isn’t feasible for me to have to deal with this alone. After 36 years, I’m still trying to allow myself to accept that I have needs, and to convince myself that it’s ok to not want to be alone, especially when things like this happen.

I’m trying to remind myself that basic needs aren’t something to be fixed. There’s nothing wrong with wanting connection or to feel protected, and the very nature of feeling protected requires an other.

<img alt="I don’t often feel safe. Having my apartment burglarized two days ago has brought that fact starkly into my awareness. My home was my shelter, the one place could feel protected. And now that sacred space has been violated, like every other physical boundary I have. I think not feeling safe comes from never having truly felt protected. By anyone. I’ve been fending for myself for as long as I can remember. There are so many times when I just want to be held. To cry in someone’s arms and feel completely safe doing it—but I don’t have that luxury. I caught myself this morning, as I’m processing this latest desecration of my personal space, wondering how to “fix” my “need” of another person. A misunderstanding of over-simplified spiritual platitudes can lead us to believe that we should never need another person. Especially people like me, who have felt too needy their whole lives and have tried to fix that needy feeling by cutting themselves off from others. The truth is that human beings are social creatures. We’ve evolved to thrive in community. Close personal bonds are nourishing. And it’s often a lack of closeness and emotional or physical neglect that creates feelings of neediness or feeling as though your own basic emotional needs are too much. It’s exhausting having to fend for yourself all the time. It was probably exhausting to feel that way as a child. It’s exhausting now. I find myself keeping a constant eye on my surroundings as I walk home from work. I make sure that no one is watching which building I’m going into when I get there. And it doesn’t even matter, because someone came through my window. That someone went through my personal belongings. That someone was IN MY BED where I sleep every night. It isn’t feasible for me to have to deal with this alone. After 36 years, I’m still trying to allow myself to accept that I have needs, and to convince myself that it’s ok to not want to be alone, especially when things like this happen. I’m trying to remind myself that basic needs aren’t something to be fixed. There’s nothing wrong with wanting connection or to feel protected, and the very nature of feeling protected requires an other." data-recalc-dims="1" data-src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" class="lazyload" src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw=="><noscript><img src="https://i2.wp.com/inmysacredspace.com/wp-content/plugins/instagram-feed/img/placeholder.png?w=1080&ssl=1" alt="I don’t often feel safe. Having my apartment burglarized two days ago has brought that fact starkly into my awareness. My home was my shelter, the one place could feel protected. And now that sacred space has been violated, like every other physical boundary I have. I think not feeling safe comes from never having truly felt protected. By anyone. I’ve been fending for myself for as long as I can remember. There are so many times when I just want to be held. To cry in someone’s arms and feel completely safe doing it—but I don’t have that luxury. I caught myself this morning, as I’m processing this latest desecration of my personal space, wondering how to “fix” my “need” of another person. A misunderstanding of over-simplified spiritual platitudes can lead us to believe that we should never need another person. Especially people like me, who have felt too needy their whole lives and have tried to fix that needy feeling by cutting themselves off from others. The truth is that human beings are social creatures. We’ve evolved to thrive in community. Close personal bonds are nourishing. And it’s often a lack of closeness and emotional or physical neglect that creates feelings of neediness or feeling as though your own basic emotional needs are too much. It’s exhausting having to fend for yourself all the time. It was probably exhausting to feel that way as a child. It’s exhausting now. I find myself keeping a constant eye on my surroundings as I walk home from work. I make sure that no one is watching which building I’m going into when I get there. And it doesn’t even matter, because someone came through my window. That someone went through my personal belongings. That someone was IN MY BED where I sleep every night. It isn’t feasible for me to have to deal with this alone. After 36 years, I’m still trying to allow myself to accept that I have needs, and to convince myself that it’s ok to not want to be alone, especially when things like this happen. I’m trying to remind myself that basic needs aren’t something to be fixed. There’s nothing wrong with wanting connection or to feel protected, and the very nature of feeling protected requires an other." data-recalc-dims="1">

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